Roller-coaster ride : c.h.

Deep

Calum and I had been so busy these past few weeks with our schedules of doing appearances and recording sessions. It was getting crazy. We both missed our friends, but once we had free time we were too exhausted to do anything else. But tonight we were going over to Kayliegh's house to have a little bit of fun. I slipped on some jeans, a black lace crop top, with my matching flip flops. "You almost ready babe?" Calum asked coming into the bathroom to spray on his cologne. 

"Yeah, I just need to put on some lip balm and then I'll be all set." I responded twisting the top of my Burts Bees applying it to my lips and rolling them together. "Okay, I'm all ready to go." I said grabbing my Michael Kors wallet and stuffing my phone into it. 

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Calum and I walked into his home that was filled with loud music and alcohol. "Hello?" I called out walking into the kitchen greeting the boys as they all picked their heads up saying "hello." to Calum and I. "Are you guys ready to go?" Calum  asked looking around at the boys. 

"I sure as hell am." Kayliegh admitted joining me by the door. The rest of the boys and Kayliegh piled into the cars as we drove off to some dive bar. We all grabbed a seat at a table and started ordering the greasiest food we could find. "Look they have karoke." Michael screamed taking a big sip from his large beer glass. "We should go up there!" Michael exclaimed standing up from his chair. Luke, Ashton, Kayliegh and Calum all stood up, but I on the other hand was opposed to the whole thing. 

"Come on Lana, you have to come up there with us." Michael nagged at me while the others were over by the stand picking out some songs. 

"You're gonna have to get me a little more drunk to drag me up there." I said slightly joking. 

"Come on Cal, get your girlfriend to come up with us." Michael ordered as he joined the rest of the group picking out a song. 

"Babe, come on you have to go up there." Calum said sticking out his lower lip which caused me to giggle and continue to shake my head, but finally I gave in. 

I stood up quickly running over to the mic set up joining the rest of the band and Kayliegh. We ended up going in groups. Kayliegh and I picked Wanna Be by the Spice Girls. Kayliegh and I were singing and dancing, truly enjoying ourselves. Then the boys went up and chose to do Hair of the Dog by Nazareth which didn't work out too well for them, but ended up being extremely entertaining for me and Kayliegh. 

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The night was filled with laughs, drinks, and lots of great food. Calum dropped everyone off and he and I went back to the apartment. I got changed into some sweats and a t-shirt and so did Calum. I snuggled up next to him on the couch unwinding from the day. "Did you have fun tonight?" I asked putting my head on his warm chest. 

"Yeah, I did. How about you?" He asked picking my head up so I was facing him. 

"Yeah I did. It was nice to see you having fun with your friends. I know you miss them a lot." 

"I do." He paused. "But I'm also enjoying this time with you." He pecked me on my lips causing my heart to burst. As much as I loved this feeling, I was never this girl who feel hard into a relationship. I hated romance with a passion. Every girl always wanted rose petals and candles, but I hated that. Other girls wanted romantic poems on Valentine's Day, I wanted a funny card. Other girls were scared of scary movies and crawled to their boyfriends, I loved scary movies and never bothered to touch my boyfriend. Other girls went to the beach and just layed out, I on the other hand turned into a prune from being in the water too long. I was never the girl who wanted these basic relationships, I just wanted someone to make me laugh and love me for me. Calum was the one that did that and sitting here I am slowly, but truly realizing I'm falling for my best friend. There is no pressure with Calum since he's known me for so long. 

"You're so corny." I smiled. 

"You're right I am pretty honry." 

"I said cor-" 

"I heard what you said." Calum smirked starting to break out into a laughter, which caused me to laugh as well. "So what are you up to tomorrow?" 

"Well I have a book signing, and then I have a lunch with the director to talk about movie stuff. But I should be home aroud 3:00 ish." 

"Why don't you and I go out to dinner after we're both home." 

"Sounds good to me. Where are we gonna go?" 

"How about Captain's Cove?" 

"That sounds amazing!" I squealed. "I've been craving their lobster bisque." 

"Well I've been craving their filet mignion." There was a couple of minutes of silence before Calum broke it. "Lana, can I ask you something?" 

"Anything." 

"That night at my house when we had sex, did you really want to do it?" I turned my body so that I was sitting up and facing him. 

"Honestly, no and yes. I had always had a little crush on you but I figured it would go away. I thought when you asked me to sleep with you, you might have felt the same way." 

"So you liked me when we had sex?" 

"I wouldn't say I liked you, I had a little crush on you, I always did." 

"Do you regret it?" 

"Honestly, yes. I regret the way that it happened and the drama that occured after it. That's why I'm taking things super slow." I saw Calum put his head down. I could tell he wasn't expecting me to say what I did. "But I don't regret losing my virginity to you." His mood lightened and I curled up into his chest. I could tell that Calum was processing everything that I had just said. I was drifting off when something caused my heart to beat 100 times faster than normal. Calum must have thought I was alseep becuase in a low whisper he spoke, "I love you Alana South."