A Billion Stars

Chapter 43

Ricky decides to take a shower after we get up, claiming he'd feel better after getting into some cold water. I smiled, thinking about the last time we tried to shower in the same apartment and in attempt to make sure nothing of that sort repeated itself, I gave him three towels. He laughed and gave me a wink that probably turned my face all types of red but I was not going to be laying naked on top of Ricky Bowen today. As Ricky showered I put on music, blasting it from a speaker in my bedroom and it's not long before I hear a tap on the bedroom wall before Ricky comes in, once again, only with a towel tied around his waist. "Okay, last time you did that, things didn't end too well. So could you put some clothes on that region." I gesture to his towel and he laughs brightly, giving me another wink. "Sure but I'll leave clothes off of the upper region just in case you have any ideas." I wrinkle my nose to mock disgust and I throw a pillow at his body. "If you're not careful I'll make sure to never have an idea concerning that ever-" He cuts me off and quirks his eyebrows, walking towards me slowly. "Oh so you've had this idea before?"My face heats and I glare at him, picking up another pillow to toss at him. He puts his hands up in the air and grins. "Okay okay I'm kidding." He says and I smile. "Okay turn around." He announces and I give him a confused looks. "Why?" I question nervously and he smiles. "Because my clothes are here..." he picks them up from my bed. "And my body is here." He says and I laugh, blushing and turning around, waiting for him to dress himself. Instead of hearing a confirmation of any kind, as moments go by the room almost seems quieter despite the music still playing. I jump when I feel two arms wrap around me and my hands tentatively grasp Ricky's wrists. I feel his nose rest in my neck and I close my eyes at the simplicity and the slight intimacy. It feels like heaven and my breathing becomes more shallow, the longer we hold our position. "You comfortable with this?" He whispers against my neck and I nod, backing into him just a little more. My heart rate continues to climb and when I feel his lips press against my skin, my eyelids flutter and I tighten my grip on his wrists. I feel him back away to check if I'm okay with everything and his lips return back to my skin, pressing closed-mouth kisses to my neck. I tilt my head involuntarily, letting him have better access and I feel his mouth open, sucking gently and it sends butterflies all the way down to my toes. His gentle lips mixed with the slight pressure is so intoxicating, so incredible that it scares me. My breathing becomes heavy and I push away from him, not enough to let go but enough for his lips to be a difficult distance away from me. "I... I'm sorry. I want to stop please." I stutter out, embarrassed, and worried about his reaction. His hands rub against arm gently and he takes a step forward, wrapping his arms back around me. "That's okay Nins." he breathes out gently. My face heats and embarrassment continues to flood through my body, along with annoyance at the fact that I ruined something really good. I just felt very exposed, unfamiliar with the feeling of being taken care of first, always very used to being there for the other and only the other. "Can you tell me why you didn't like that?" He asks gently, moving his hands up my arms and massaging my shoulders. I turn in his arms and stare at his chest, figuring out my answer carefully. "It wasn't you, it felt so good. It just scared me." I admit and he tilts my chin, grinning. "It felt so good it scared you?" I smile at the way it sounds, matching his bright facial expression. "I'm not used to being the one who-" Ricky cuts me off and raises his eyebrows. "Receives the pleasure first? Is put before others?" My face heats at his blunt choice of words but I nod and he presses his nose to my forehead before pulling back. "Mm, well that's something you're gonna have to get used to. You're gonna be hard pressed to get me to sit back and let you do everything in this relationship." I smile and press myself closer to him. "I might be okay with that change." I admit quietly and Ricky tilts my head up, pressing his lips to mine carefully before pulling back. "You better be." He laughs and I grin, wrapping my arms fully around his torso and swaying our bodies. "Let's dance." He suggests and I tilt my head in confusion. He pulls on my arm, spinning me in a circle before clasping our hands together and dancing leading us to the beat of the music. I stumble, falling over his feet and I tense up whenever he tries to spin me, earning a bright laugh from him. "You're really bad at this!" He exclaims and I mock offense. "I was homeschooled okay, we didn't do prom or dance at homecoming. This is new for me." I say with a laugh and he grins, pulling me close to his body. "You don't need experience to do this, just follow my lead." His facial expression is something that I can't quite decipher as he looks into my eyes and when we start to successfully move together, he gives me a small smile. "See? Look how well you do when you trust someone." He whispers and I blush, focusing on his hands and the direction he's leading. "It's not easy." I say and he nods. "I won't let you fall."