You Only Live Once

Wednesday- 1/7/2020

It's Julance and I was wrong about hitting 1k reads. My math and calculations must have been off. So it's au month. Today we have an au and it's the last day of the challenge current wall paper.

Hah you thought I'd have anime wallpaper. Nope. Wrong. My lock screen is a duo with my sisters. I have one side and she has the other. When you put our phones next to each other the picture aligns and it's one massive picture. Honestly, there's nothing fancy with my wallpaper. It's just black with some words on them. Last time it used to be Eco but now it's just black with some words. I kind of like it that way. Nothing too fancy. When we reach 500 reads I'll do my wallpaper reveal.

Today's prompt: Blue

Voltron lion, the first one to be found. Lance is it's respectful owner not Allura. I'm sorry I just really don't like Allura having Blue it's not fair!!! *screams*
That's it.

Today's Klance au: Royalty

I'll do it later. Gonna go shower first. <9.25pm>

Aaaaaa! *screams* I just was talking to an acquaintance author about something everyone has been bugging me about. I tried to get advice from my cousin in January during his visit but I just got the same disappointing answer. Then I decided to ask some author acquaintances for help. So I got a good answer and am now willing to type out an Email. And send it... this is scary. <11.12am>

*screams again* I just sent the email. *screams again and runs away from computer* I don't want to see the reply. What if it's bad? What if I don't like it? Aaaaaaaa! *spirals down into total darkness* They're going to see it by the next subject. Because then they'll reply. And and and and and and and and and and and and and...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... <11.25am>

...oh no... It's class. And I'm sitting here looking at the small bracket at the top of my screen:

Inbox (3) - ______@_________...

If it turns to Inbox (4). Then they must have replied. And then I'll have to read it. And then oh no...it just turned to (4). Uhhhh... what now? Omg. I'm going to have to read it. oh no. I'm gonna be brave and click it. Be back. <12.00pm>

At least it wasn't that bad. They said they missed me! So I guess were cool. (I will share the details if you want them. I didn't want to bother you) The thing is, I should reply... right? Because when you ask, "How are you?" People expect an answer right? Okay, whatever. I'm just going to reply and deal with the consequences later. <1.14pm>

Is it alright to say, "I thought you wouldn't reply?" It seems ok. But who knows. People might take it the wrong way. Whatever, I'm just going to type and send. Alright. Sent. Now to wait.

Idk why I'm like this. Why? Because I kind of find stuff easier to say when it's in a language people can't read just like that. Somehow it makes it less awkward. But Idk. I gtg get my music stuff for class. <1.32pm>

I hope my tonic triads are better...

<2.51pm> Yes they are. And here is today's au:

Actually, nah I'll write it later. So, school is starting on the 15th and they are not changing it anymore. Anyways, I'll have to ask my medal back from the school. I did want to walk up the stairs to receive it with my team but then the virus came and yeet, everything I wanted to achieve just got blown away, just like that. Idk what's gonna happen to this book when I go back to school. It's quite sad I won't be updating it regularly when school starts. Also, I kind of find it weird that we'll have to eat lunch and break in the class. Imagine people looking you as you eat. Welp, glad I was brought up with first class table manners. But the self-consciousness ya know?

Now it's after dinner. My mother has just crushed all my dreams and hopes. I'm sad now. Goodbye. *cries while walking to room* <7.08pm>

It just crossed my mind. We can't have au month. We will have to postpone that. I'm sorry. But it's still Julance so that's a good point. AU month will be in December because I'm free during that time. Julance is still going on. I repeated that. It was necessary. Now to game hardcore for two weeks then have no computer for the rest of the time. Anyways, I'll apologize for the inconvenience again and again until you say you're ok and are fine about it because it's my nature to do so. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'll write a poem of the sorry I feel I need to give. I got all your hopes up for literally nothing. Sorry. Here's a small poem about how I feel about everything at the moment:

I feel like my world is crumbling.
Everything is turning black.
I'm falling into an endless void of nothingness.
I feel empty.
Nothing can pull me out of this.

So poetic. A round of applause please. Thank you, thank you very much. *bows* Anyways, I actually do want to return to school but not our now 'reformed' school. I want to go back to the olden days. But just a heads up that I'm saying earlier... get ready for the second wave. Then you'll see me walking into the school compounds wearing a gas mask. We have two at home and some more in the store. Don't ask why. My dad says that gas masks are hard to breathe in. So I'm willing to try it out one day. When I'm 18 I'll take an exam to become a certified fumigator to take over a small part of my dad's business. At least that's what he said I could do. He said he would bring me to the ships to gain some experience. But then my mom is obv totally against it so... I don't know.

I also think I may have lost my skill of communication. But that's probably just because I couldn't be bothered to stay in touch. Except if I had texted that person and had a little conversation or stayed back in class with them then you probably know how much they mean to me. Well, before I do leave, on the 14th, I will give my last word to-

Wait, why am I even saying these stuff now? Lets all wait till then and then I'll get on with that stuff. Anyways, this is getting sad, at least for me. So, I'll chat later because I'm spending my last two weeks grinding in my games. <8.30pm>

Anyways, our amazing prince story the authors and I were doing has finally come to an end. Now we're thinking of writing the whole thing out and publishing it to the library. Idk how americano found their way into the lounge but they are there at least. So enough chit chat tonight, chit chat tomorrow. Goodnight and sweet dreams <3

-Avery-