LMAO I forgot to write about this.... i think? Idk I'm not gonna check so you're gonna hear about it again I guess.
Back in June? May? Idk I texted michael and asked if he'd help me with my songs bc bottom like is that I need help and surprisingly he said yes. So then I asked my mom if that was chill and even MORE surprisingly she was like "yeah that's fine" (strangely chill right?! Idk..) and so were supposed to figure o a time but he's waiting on stuff or whatever so idk when it's gonna happen but it'll happen. Def gotta keep writing rn tho bc I need more solid songs that I'm confident in. Oh and then also we FaceTimed about it when I was up north and it was sooo strangely chill lmao I didn't even think much of it until I got back inside (I was in a car in the driveway lol) and I was like... oh, that was... like, fine. I didn't even see him as like "omg ahh my ex bf" and shit I just saw him as him... idk wack shit haha. Anyway, so idk I feel very self conscious about my songs now because of the fact that things are actually happening now and I'll have to ACTUALLY SHARE them. I gotta work on my unfinished songs ugh. Sometimes it's a drag and unsuccessful when the lyrics aren't just popping into my head lol. That's usually how this stuff happens for me bc I can't play an instrument so it's not like I can just be all whoop de fuckin whoop lemme make a random melody thing idefk and write some lyrics. I think I'm gonna try to finish the ones that are unfinished but I like, and if not then I have my backup song (which for some reason is hard for me to siiiing ahhh idkkkkk) and another that's done and then one that just needs another verse....
Ahh scary.
I could write a lot about all this song stuff going on in my head.
Lmao I stfg if my music does good and people look for dirt on me and they find this?..... goodbye I move to Greenland. Same with if logan A has anything saved😬
OR TRAVIS OR TRE OR JAMES OR IDEFK AHHHHHHH THIS IS WHY WE don't DO THAT MERE🥳🤩🥰😇
crossing fingers and sayin prayers.
OH
I MIGHT BE GOING BACK TO CHURCH !!!!!! Man I hope I am, my mom said she'd talk to my dad about me going back. It's been 17 weeks 😱😱😱
Wack.
Anyways soo we'll see what happens.
Pray for my confidence and my damaged voice and my creativity.
So, yeah.
*Cruel Summer starts playing*
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Meredith's Thoughts Volume IV
Non-FictionYou know how it be down in Mere town. Welcome back. (If you haven't read Mere's Thoughts 1-3 they're still here and I'd suggest reading those first to get some background knowledge if you care haha)
