If you told me mid eighth grade that right now I'd be:
- at hartland high school
- doing gymnastics
- going to church/youth group on my own
- no longer friends with a bunch of people
- going to therapy and spent 2ish years getting over a break up
- and oh yeah, doing online school bc were in the middle of a pandemic
I LITERALLY would have put you in a mental hospital or tased you.
You wanna know how it was all supposed to happen? There's a few possibilities:
1. Be at cspa and get a varsity letter for volleyball and academics, go to fall ball with or without michael, take AP psych my sophomore year, be friends with Isabelle Abby Sophia sofie eríka mark jaden nathan ducy etc etc etc, be in Rocks advisory, graduate with the people I spent my entire childhood with, sentinel for life.
But they don't want me there- I asked.
2. At hartland dating michael (I told him way back how I was thinking of switching schools blah blah blah) doing volleyball or gymnastics, friends with his friends and the other people I know there, Abby would be there and possibly others, thriving and going to football games and parties and having a good public school life.
I'm at hartland- and I'm anything but thriving.
3. At milford with Isabelle doing volleyball and cheer, friends with new people and having a truly fresh start, Lorelei and Clare would be there, totally different vibe, thriving with Isabelle and having a good public school life.
I didn't choose Milford partially because michael wasn't there- and Isabelle and I aren't friends anymore.
If you told me in elementary school that in high school I'd have no friends, severe anxiety, bad grades, no "thing", no music out, no social life no NOTHING
I would have cried.
And been so disappointed in myself.
And I am.
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Meredith's Thoughts Volume IV
No FicciónYou know how it be down in Mere town. Welcome back. (If you haven't read Mere's Thoughts 1-3 they're still here and I'd suggest reading those first to get some background knowledge if you care haha)
