I've had a couple wack dreams and idk what to think about them.
I sound good with music but terrible without and it's fucking annoying I just get so upset like I feel untalented. Like seriously what in life do I actually EXCEL at that isn't crying overthinking or complaining? Nothing. And it pisses me off.
And I always try to mention working on my songs with some people but they just ignore it I guess idek but I'm just super discouraged.
Same with gymnastics, idek. Beam is dumb as fuck. And lilley seems to not like me and Brooke seems to HATE me, she didn't even add me back on snap. Fucking dumb like damn what'd I do.
Nathan's being a fucking dick I feel like he never wants to talk and idek how I feel about him anymore it's all dumb. My mind cannot physically handle liking, talking to, or dating a guy. Like I don't even wanna. I don't got the ambition, or any reason. To me the risk... it's... just not worth it anymore.
The vibe is just wack idek i feel so so so strange lately I'm almost panicked about it.
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Meredith's Thoughts Volume IV
NonfiksiYou know how it be down in Mere town. Welcome back. (If you haven't read Mere's Thoughts 1-3 they're still here and I'd suggest reading those first to get some background knowledge if you care haha)
