I Would Hate To Be You

Chapter 40 [everything better plan]

Chapter 40

Avery Siara Punzalan got engaged to Boaz Cervantes

April 17

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Comments:

Rain Feliciano: OH, MY GOD! FINALLYY!! CONGRATS, SOON TO BE MR AND MRS. CERVANTES!! HUHU

Jam Reyes: Congratulations!

Olive Arellano: After 10 long years. About time, brother!

Sarah Lichauco: DUDES I AM SO HAPPY FOR THE TWO OF YOU I'M CRYING HUHU BESTIEEEE ASIA!

Jemimah Ricafort: Finally!!!

Rache Punzalan: OMG, pinsan! Congrats!! Alsooo... may hashtag na akong naisip!! #AParaKayB HAHAHA

I stopped reading the comments section of Ate Asia's recent relationship status update. She changed it a few hours ago. The moment I put down the phone on my bed, I started crying again. I pulled the blanket and made sure my whole body is covered. I hid under it and buried my face on the pillow. Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagpatak ng mga luha ko. Masakit na ang dibdib ko kakahikbi at mas lalo akong nahihirapan dahil tulog na si Aleah sa kabilang kama at hindi niya ako pwedeng marinig na umiiyak kaya pinipigilan ko ang sarili ko na mag-ingay.

Bagsak na ang katawan niya dahil sa sobrang pagod ngayong araw na 'to. Pero ako, kahit anong pilit kong pumikit, hindi ako makatulog. Because when I try to, I could see flashbacks. My mind is picturing every detail of my brother's proposal. How it was so intimate. How it was just the two of them talking privately in that corner, laughing. I remember the surprise reaction on Ate Asia's face when my brother suddenly kneeled down in front of her. The way her hands flew over her mouth. The way her eyes glimmered. How she was so happy when she finally uttered the word, "Yes."

And I could vividly remember the smile—that priceless smile formed on my brother's lips. I remember seeing his tears when he heard the only word that ever mattered that night.

I saw how he cried while hugging his now-fiancée while mouthing the words, 'Thank you. I love you.' repeatedly. I saw how happy he was. He has never been that happy. And he has never cried that much because of too much happiness. It felt like it meant all the world for him. It felt like that moment was all he ever waited and wanted.

I also remember standing there while all of those happen right before my very eyes. It felt like someone took my heart out of my chest and tore it into pieces. It felt like someone choke me in the neck because I couldn't breathe. And I was just crying while looking at them. I cried and sobbed, and I kept on shaking my head because I couldn't believe it. I couldn't accept it.

It's so painful. I've never felt that kind of pain in my entire life. I've never felt so wounded and broken. I've never felt so scared of the future. So afraid of what lies ahead.

My brother is now engaged. He's getting married. And soon, he'll leave the house. The thought of waking up one day without my brother lurking around terrifies me to death. The thought of coming home from a long day and wanting to hug him only to find his room empty is frightening.