narrations for my au

jeonghan malia talk

jeonghan looked up and saw malia walking out of the venue as he stood up as well and patted avery's shoulder which avery just nodded and told him to go follow malia. he walked in a fast pace as he saw malia's back just looking at the surroundings.

"malia" he starts off which malia heard and looked back.

malia smiled and sat down in one of the bench facing the venue and they can clearly see the happenings inside— which is not so different since they're just chatting and laughing while eating.

jeonghan walked slowly as he sat down beside malia and heavily sighed which malia started to fidget with her fingers and looked up again. silence overcame upon them, nagpapakiramdaman lang sila kung sino unang magsasalita and finally, jeonghan spoke first.

"i'm sorry" he mumbles, malia looks beside her and smiled, "if that's what happened that night, it's okay, i forgave you naman na kasi i know you are just drunk—"

"drunk or not, i still know what i did, and for that i am sorry," he says reaching for malia's hand as he squeezed it, "sobrang gago ng move na 'yon knowing my girlfriend heard everything."

malia looks down and played with jeonghan's fingers, "i'm sorry din, kasi napapansin ko medyo nagiging distant kayo sa isa't isa, nakakaramdam naman ako, ako na rin ang lalayo." she says, "closure diba? for that, han, i'm letting you go this time, thank you for everything."

at that point, natahimik na lang silang dalawa. jeonghan looked at their hands together feeling shaky as he saw the ring he gave years ago, he sadly smiled and looked at malia who's looking inside the venue with a smile plastered on her face.

"did you... did you ever fall out of love, lia?" jeonghan asks as malia faced him, her smile from a while ago faded slowly as she looks down, "you know, i met this guy last year? i think... sobrang idealistic niya and he was not afraid to tell me how he felt."

"during that time i was confused with my feelings and i thought why not try? pero naunahan ako ng takot." she says as she finally looked at jeonghan again, "don't get me wrong ha, sobrang bait nun, ang humble rin and we have the same dreams, we were both happy of what we have pero alam mo 'yun? may kulang."

jeonghan nodded and squeezed her hand again, "falling out of love is bullshit, honestly, kasi i realized you will never un-love someone. talagang may mas hihigit lang doon sa pagmamahal mo, and eventually you'd still care for that person yet your love for that person isn't greater than you have to the other one." she smiles,

"ikaw, han? did you fall out of love na?" malia asks looking up at him who is already looking at her, "it's okay if you won't answer, i have my answer na eh." she said immediately, "you're happy, so i am happy."

"paano pag yung mga sinabi ko sa'yo that night, all of it is true? na oo, mahal pa rin kita and i want you back." jeonghan says as he heard malia chuckle, "malia i am not joking."

"so do i." malia says, "han, tama na, okay na tayo." she says as she stood up but was stopped by jeonghan holding her hand tightly, "malia, please..." jeonghan pleads.

"ano pa ba kailangan mo, han? stop doing this na, just let me go already." she was now trying to stop her tears but despite that she gave jeonghan and sad smile, "stop confusing yourself and settle with what you have right now, masaya ka—"

"sa tingin mo sasaya ako knowing you aren't really happy?" jeonghan finally asks which made malia's mouth gape, "sa tingin mo ba okay ako dun? malia all i ever wanted was to see you happy but why—"

"because nga everything i did was for you. lahat ng ginawa ko is for you to be happy too."

jeonghan shakes his head in disapproval, "you asked me if i was happy? alright," he stood up and runs his hand through his hair, "kasi malia i am not, hindi talaga ako masaya!" he screamed enough for the both of them to only hear.

"achievements? oo putangina it made me happy pero why do i always come back to you! it shouldn't be like this pero mababaliw na ako minsan thinking you aren't okay, thinking that you are alone despite na may mga kasama ka doon, malia.."

"han, mali 'to, you're not supposed to be like this, nalilito ka lang, pero please stay with av—"

malia was startled as jeonghan kneeled in front of her reaching for her hand and putting it up and pampering it with small kisses as his tears started to fall as this scenario was too familiar for the both of them, too familiar that malia didn't even notice she was crying already as she tries to remove her hand from jeonghan but his grasp was too strong.

"i'm confused, malia, please i just wanna go back, please" jeonghan was already a crying mess, "i just wanna know why i can't move on from you kasi i can't seem to let you go as well just please tell me..." malia was already sobbing hard as she finally removed her hand and cupped jeonghan's face.

"han, kasi mahal pa rin kita." she finally said which made jeonghan rests his cheeks on malia's hand as the latter softly wiped jeonghan's tears, "pero we can't kasi babalik din ako sa italy and you have someone—"

jeonghan kept squeezing her hand, "bakit?" he asks.

"there are things we can't really answer, han."

jeonghan slowly nodded, "confused ka rin 'no? okay lang ako, magiging okay din ako." malia went closer and kissed jeonghan's forehead, "this is your answer, it's time for you to let go, okay? closure lang naman need na'tin, eto na 'yun. be free." she says as she removed jeonghan's hand from hers.

malia was supposed to walk off until he heard jeonghan as his voice was shaking as well, "mahal pa rin kita, mahal na mahal." malia looked back and smiled at him despite the years stained on her cheeks she went back and held jeonghan's cheek who's standing up now and wiped his unshed tears.

"sanay lang talaga ta'yo sa isa't isa, sanay lang talaga siguro ako na sabihing mahal ka, but you have someone inside here," malia says sofly pointing at jeonghan's chest where his heart is, "and inside there, i'm just not as big as hers kasi nga, i was a big part of your life, and you are too," she says now pointing at her own chest where her heart is.

"accept the reality, hannie. we can never bring back the past kasi all we need to do is move forward without worrying of what the future may bring us, kasi if tinadhana talaga, itnadhana, hmm?" she asks which jeonghan nodded at her, "'wag ka na umiyak, here's your closure na." she sadly smiled as she gave jeonghan one last kiss on the cheek.

but before she lets go, she held jeonghan's hand and squeezed it,

"alam mo kung bakit ako sure na mahal kita simula pa lang nung una?" she asks as jeonghan looked up, he gave her a small smile while he is trying to stop his tears,

"dahil araw araw kitang pinili ng walang pag-aalangan."

she breathed sharply,

"but i guess, it's not really ours in this lifetime."