narrations for my au

chanha

as soon as sanha saw chan outside joshua's home, he immediately smiled and ran towards chan to tackle him in a hug. the smaller one hugs back as he hides his face by the crook of sanha's neck inhaling the taller one's scent as if they haven't seen each other for a decade. in times like this, this is what matters for the both of them: kahit walang umiimik. just a hug from each other's presence is enough that everything's fine, or is it?

chan was the first one to let go of the hug as he held sanha's shoulders and softly smiles, "tara?" he asks as sanha didn't hesitate to nod and squeeze chan's left shoulder, "tara." he replies as chan opens the passenger's seat while protecting sanha's head (ang tangkad kasi baka raw tumama yung ulo) closing it right after. he jogs going to the driver's seat as they drove off also, sun is almost setting.

the drive was comfortable despite no one's speaking, only the sound of chan's playlist was playing echoes inside, sometimes chan would sing along with it which makes sanha uncontrollably smile from fondness. he misses this a lot. he always does. later on, he was confused why the path of their drive was different because chan said they'll go to moa's seaside when in fact they had a different route, he wanted to ask when suddenly the smaller one reached out for his left hand and interlocks it with his.

sanha can't help but blush over this as he speaks, "uh.. kala ko ba sa moa?" he asks in a whisper too shy to speak loudly. this is another side of sanha that chan loves the most, he wants the taller one to be comfortable with him and not always go loud because that's what his image is, chan wants him to enjoy his company and just be himself kahit walang tumitingin, "nag-iba yung plano ko so, you'll see." chan says bringing up sanha's hand close to his chin as he kisses the back of his hand.

as minutes go by, sanha knew the pathway and he realized it's the path going to his penthouse, he looked around as he noticed by his peripheral view that chan was smiling at him, "boring sa bahay..." sanha lowkey whines as chan tightens his hold to sanha's hand, "hindi 'yan. ako kasama mo eh." chan retorts back as the taller one scoffs and can't help but roll his eyes.

"ang hangin." sanha mutters but chan just chuckles until he parks the car in front of the entrance from the condominium. sanha was supposed to get off the car but chan stops him and says, "ako na magbubukas ng pinto." he says but sanha shakes his head, "eh, kaya ko na 'to. ipa-valet park mo na lang." sanha says as he gets the keys from chan's hand getting out of the car, "hay nako." chan whispers as he gets out following sanha walking through the entrance of the condominium.

as they enter the elevator, the tension inside wasn't thick but it felt like sanha needs to do the first move so he did, he nudged chan by the side as the latter looks up with an annoyed face, "para san yun?" he asks which made sanha pout, "ano naman gagawin natin sa bahay? ang boring boring eh" sanha whines. buti na lang isa lang kasama nila sa loob and busy din kakacellphone. chan shakes his head and pressed a different floor level, "huh? sa pinakataas pa yung bahay." sanha says pressing his floor but the smaller one stops him, "sa rooftop tayo." chan mutters as he holds sanha's hand.

puro hawak 'to ah. sanha thoughts

when they arrived at the rooftop, opening the door made sanha gasp. hindi naman kasi siya lagi nags-stay sa lugar na 'to, either nasa old house nila nakatambay, kanila wonwoo, or kung kaninong bahay ang may anak para makipag-laro siya or he ends up tagging along with his ate avery when he gets bored. he didn't expect that the rooftop sunset would be this pretty as he runs and stops midway smiling. the breeze of the air hits him warmly as he walks towards the railings and rests his elbows by it.

later on, he felt a presence beside him and he's snapped back by the reality kasi alam naman niya kung ano ang pinunta ni chan dito, hindi naman na siya makakatakas. he doesn't like to start off these kinds of conversations but he was shocked to himself when he asked a sensitive question to chan, but the latter wasn't fazed by it,

"pagod ka na ba?" he asks as chan pursed his lips resting his elbows by the railings too as he move closer beside sanha, "if talking about the flight and all, oo, pagod ako kasi syempre flight—" sanha stops him, "hindi kasi—" chan cuts him off too, "patapusin mo kasi muna ako," chan laughs, "i was supposed to bring up the topic pero ikaw nag-tanong una so why not be straightforward about it." he adds as sanha shuts his mouth looking back at the view in front of him.

"and," sanha hears when chan inhales deeply, "if pagod na ako about this whole set-up with you, about me waiting for you and your assurance, sa totoo lang oo? mukhang hindi sure 'no." he asks but more of a statement, "kasi sa totoo lang matanda na tayo— well okay there's still a lot to see ahead of us, we're almost thirty but hindi ko alam, pagod na ba ako? sayo? kung tutuusin hindi ako napagod sa'yo, never ako napagod sa'yo, at hinding hindi ako mapapagod sa'yo." sanha finally looks at him but then he sees that chan was already looking at him as he says those words,

"kaso napapagod na ako kung ano yung meron sa atin." chan finally says smiling at sanha but he can see his eyes being tired about it.

this time it was sanha's turn to hold his hand squeezing it, "i'm sorry," he says looking at their hands, "sobrang sorry." he keeps repeating when chan holds his chin and made him look at his eyes, "wala ka naman kasalanan, i get it though. natatakot ka diba?" chan asks as sanha opens his mouth but nothing comes out, "gusto ko lang sabihin na sana hindi mo ako i-compare with your past." chan says truthfully which made sanha feel guilty about it.

"hindi naman maiiwasan na matakot eh, normal yun. pero sana man lang sabihin mo if meron pa rin akong kinakapitan—" he was cut off when sanha cups both of his cheeks as he leaned forward and finally closes the gap between them kissing him. both of them held their breath as they pull apart, they were breathing hard,

"i want... i want us to work... please." sanha says, pressing their forehead together, "then ask me to stay." chan whispers to him as sanha nods repeatedly, "stay. stay here with me please." sanha says tears already falling from his eyes as chan brought up wiping the tears of the taller one, "hinihintay ko lang naman sagot mo sa isang taon kong panliligaw eh, oo o hindi lang." chan says as the taller one nods laughing, "thank you for being patient, sorry—"

"sorry na naman." chan smiles, "ako dapat mag thank you, thank you for asking me to stay." chan softly says, "let's make this work, hmm?" he asks as the taller one smiles, "let's make this work."

"bunny?" chan calls again as sanha straightens himself humming, "do you trust me?" he asks. sanha smiles and cups chan's cheek again, "i do. i do trust you." he replies softly.

"mahal kita." chan adds as sanha smiles again but this time wider because it's the first time hearing it from chan, "mahal din kita. mahal na mahal." he replies back leaning down and stealing a peck on the corner of chan's lips.

"hilig mo magnakaw ng halik" chan comments as sanha rolls his eyes, "ikaw ang galing mo bumanat tangina mo." sanha says moving closer and hugging chan from the back, "for you lang naman." chan retorts back as the taller one hums as they appreciate the sunset in front of them, "for me lang."