narrations for my au

just echos chz

your relationship with jeonghan wasn't perfect like any other couple would do. they'd had misunderstandings especially that they are always the rivals every year because of how tight their competition is when it comes to their grades.

that's why you kept your relationship with him hidden, for you guys not to ruin the reputation and also, his parents loves you the way you are, but they don't want you for their son which makes your self esteem low. you never told jeonghan how you felt, you just let your insecurities eat you alive.

on the other hand, your parents adored jeonghan, they don't really hinder you from having a relationship at that age, but they want you more to focus on your grades, which is that's what you did.

because of your greed and desperation to be on the top, you did everything just to make your parents proud and you want to prove jeonghan's parents that you can be the ideal girl they want for jeonghan, but they still seem to always knock you down with their sweet words yet can kill your self esteem in crumple.

in that way, you broke it off with jeonghan without explanations, you just told him you lost the spark and that's it. then the next few days, you never talked to him even if he tried to make a scene one time at the library. you broke him, seeing him at that state broke you too.

but it's for the best, right? probably.

days before your graduation, you just found yourself crying in jihoon's arms telling him it hurts, what is? you lied. you told jihoon that jeonghan tried to frame you up by threatening you that he will tell the teacher you were caught cheating. lies. that didn't happen, you only made that excuse to still hide the relationship you had with jeonghan.

for some reason, jeonghan thought, am i really not enough for you na ipagmalaki ako sa lahat as your lover? the questions made him ask himself if he was really worth it.

he is, he really is worth it, without a doubt.

but, were you regretting breaking the relationship you had with him? probably. but not gonna lie, it broke you so much to the point it hurts seeing jeonghan smile at you like nothing happened, tease you every traditional saturday dinners like nothing happened. but deep inside, he's still trying to find answers why, why did you have to hurt him.

it was for the best, it really is.
but there is this one main reason, a big deal for you to be exact, the reason why you broke it off, why it was hard for you to tell him why, even to your brother, your best friend, literally, no one knows except you and your parents.

it's the better way you thought, so if you leave, there's no turning back anymore.

you never said those three words to jeonghan, the same as him. but did you both love each other? yes, so much.

but, love can wait, right? hopefully.