narrations for my au

jihoon malia

malia was already in the verge of crying as she tossed her phone at the bed and walked towards the door as she was greeted by a man pursing his lips, malia didn't hesitate but to run in her best friend's arms and cry it all out. jihoon pushes his best friend slowly as they were still hugging until they finally reached inside and closes the door.

"sige, iiyak mo lang 'yan." jihoon says as he caressed his best friend's back.

after some minutes, malia lets go of the hug and walked towards her small couch and sat down still sobbing as jihoon walked closer and sat beside her wiping malia's tears with the back of his hand.

silence overcame until malia spoke,

"naalala mo nung, hinika ako months ago..." malia started, jihoon just nodded as he listened carefully, "that was the day jeonghan called me," malia softly laughs, "tapos syempre natuwa ako pero malamang, wala rin ako karapatan kasi syempre, he's just calling to ask a favor, pero ang saya ko nun, ji, kasi maririnig ko ulit boses niya." malia says as she looks down and wipes her tears.

jihoon pulled her closer as he puts malia's head on his chest and told her to continue,

"kaso nanghina ako, he was crying at the other line, at that time i even laughed sabi ko pa nga tatawagan ko si avery kaso alam mo sabi niya?" malia looks up as his tears started to build up again, jihoon wipes them immediately, "sabi niya, bumalik na raw ako, ayaw niya na raw, pagod na pagod na siya." her voice cracked as jihoon kept caressing her hair.

"nainis ako pero pinigilan ko yun sabi ko, jeonghan end the call na, you're drunk tinawanan niya lang ako tapos sabi niya lia, seryoso ako, balik ka na sa akin, please. i was supposed to end the call but i heard him scream, natakot ako ji." malia says.

"i told him a lot of times to fucking end the call kasi onti-onti na akong hindi makahinga non, i even tried to make my voice lively pero hindi talaga siya tumitigil, then it got quiet and again, e-end ko na sana pero nanghina ako lalo sa tanong niya,"

jihoon just hummed and still played on malia's hair,

"sabi niya," she stutters, "lia, mahal mo pa rin ba ako? minahal mo ba ako? bakit ganito? bakit ayaw mo bumalik dito? may nagawa ba ako? then that time my breathing started to have complications until i heard someone's voice, it was avery." malia says as she held onto jihoon's arm tighter and cried it all out.

"i kept saying sorry to her ji, kahit sinasabi okay lang? hindi tama 'yun, ji."

jihoon sighs, "wala ka kasalanan, lia."

"ayoko maging rason sa away nila, ji. alam ko narinig 'yun ni avery lahat, and she doesn't deserve—"

"neither do you."