Butterflies

Chapter 21

Theory

"Shit, Jems. Sino ba 'yan?" Kanina pa ako ginugulo ng grupo, nabasa din kasi nila.

Nakadapa lang ako sa kama tabi ang mga girls. Sila Capri ang nagrereply sa hate comments, nakikisali pa si Cancer kahit wala siya dito.

"Tangina ng mga 'to. Anong section, Jems? Sasabihin ko kay Sir Nico 'tong Cyber Bullying nila. I mean, what's wrong with having guy friends? Just because they're pretty, they think they can have pretty boys. They don't even know how genuine you are!" Nakakunot noong pag-eexplain ni Capri.

Hinarap ko siya sa gulat na baka totohanin ang pag report kay Sir Nico. "Capricorn! 'Wag mo nang i-report. Ayoko ng away, matatapos din naman 'to" kalmado kong sinabi.

"Eh, kasi! Ah basta, sige. 'Pag 'di niya pa binura 'yang post niya, nakooo! Makikita niya!!" Kurot kurot ni Capri ang unan. Patay ka talaga Trinity, gigil sayo si Mommy.

Ayoko namang pumatol dahil masyadong cheap. Eww, gaining troops on social media to hate me.

Some bashed my appearance not just the slut word. I read some saying, 'Taba naman, maitim pa', 'Sure na sila, diyan? Na kulam yata ang mga bebe boys ko', 'Yack, maitim'

How hypocrite people can be? Saying black lives matter but when it's on your country, they would often say to you that you're ugly because your skin is black. Hello, we live in Phillipines! Our unique skin color is Kayumanggi, so anong pinaglalaban nila na panget ka kapag maitim ka?

I'm not also perfect. Nasasabi ko din na panget ang tao sa isipan ko pero after knowing how good they are, parang wala na. Normal nalang sila sa'kin.

Appearance really does matter, huh. I thought we're born equal because we're childrens of God. I guess it's different here.

The passing days, I feel shy and my anxiety is up. Lumayo layo muna ako kayla Vien. Si Anayla lang ang mapilit na sumasama pa din sa'kin.

"Frieny, it's okay. Hayaan mo na ang mga frogies na 'yon! Inggit lang sila sa dami ng gustong makipag-kaibigan sayo" I just smiled at Anayla.

We're here at Acacia. Mas konti ang estudyante dito at nakakapag-isip ako ng maayos. Everytime na dumadaan ako sa hallway, madaming nagpaparinig, madaming masama ang tingin sa'kin, madaming gusto akong mawala.

I can't please them, they don't know me. They don't know me, yet they bashed my personality. What did I do to them? Did I do bad things to them? Why are they hating me? Just because of boys....

I looked in the mirror and saw myself. I touched my shoulders down to my arms and saw how my skin color is different. I touched my body and I saw how fat it is. I touched my face and saw how ugly I am. Tears start falling down, I can't believe how affected I am.

Hey, Livia... You're beautiful for how you look like. You're a child of God, right? Everything God created is Beautiful. Don't let words affect you.

I smiled after I cried. They don't deserve my tears.

It's September 6 today, monday. Just one week ago when those pictures are deleted.

I just heard from Vivian that Trinity didn't delete it, someone hacked her account. And I suspect that someone in the Agency hacked her account. I just have to investigate who.

"Hey," Kach is standing in front of me.

Tinaasan ko lang siya ng kilay. Our classmates look at us but I don't mind. Hanggang tingin at salita lang naman sila.

"Let's talk" that gives chills to me.

"We're already talking," sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. Hindi niya ba napapansin?!!