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Chapter 35

They say you never know the true meaning of what you have until you've lost it. I'd have to agree.

Never did I ever think my parents would split up and leave me in such a dark place when I needed them the most. It's crazy how the people you love can betray you in the worst ways possible. That type of pain is the worst I have ever experienced.

After meeting my mom, who I had been told was dead for the past three years, I left to go back to New York with Xavier. Explaining the things that happened to me to my mom since she was kicked out by my idiotic dad was complicating.

To say she was livid is an understatement. My mother didn't mind my father putting hands on her since she was used to it for so long. But him putting his filthy hands on me set her on edge. I could also see Xavier was getting angrier at the moment from me mentioning my abuse.

After all, my mother never really loved him as much as she loved Howard, who is really nice. Howard obviously didn't like his own brother's selfishness at taking the love of his life away from him.

Howard was surprisingly very kind to me and welcomed me. He seemed more of a father figure to me than my own father would ever be. At least not anymore. Don't get me wrong, my father was amazing until the whole incident happened.

My father knew exactly how much his brother loved my mother yet he still forced her into a relationship with him. My mother didn't have a choice at the time because my father was even threatening her life and Howard's life.

I understood my mother not wanting to take the abuse from my father anymore so she basically decided to leave for good. What she didn't know was while she was living her life with Howard in California, I was suffering the abuse from my father. He basically abused my mother then turned to me.

I hadn't even realized that my mother was constantly being abused by my father even when they seemed so in love. I guess it was all an act on my mother's part.

Forgiving my mother after all of this wasn't easy but finding out the actual truth made more sense. Of course I don't blame her for this. She didn't have a choice and was oblivious to the fact that my father would turn to abuse me instead.

I now know why in the beatings he would mention her. He was talking about my mother and to him we were similar. I will never forgive my father for doing this shit to me and my mother. I will however move past it and live my life with Xavier. I hope whatever the future holds is better than this. Yet you can't be too sure.

"Are you okay?" Xavier murmured while placing a chaste kiss on my cheek.

I gave him a reassuring smile while nodding. Xavier has took it well with everything happening and comforted me along with the pregnancy, which wasn't making things easier.

Giving birth at nineteen wasn't exactly what I was expecting. Although I still have a few months until that happens. Still the anxiety is slowly eating me apart but thankfully Xavier is helping me calm down during the whole thing.

My mother also gave me advice and I thankfully took it from her. Although Mary and Maria had helped me a lot during this whole thing when my mother wasn't around.

Now knowing the truth and reason behind the whole incident helped me but at the same time I couldn't help but wonder what my father was planning. He surely wouldn't just stop out of no where when he clearly wanted to see me suffer in my mother's place. I wish he would just stop. But that would be too good to be true. Especially on his part. My father isn't used to not getting his way. So if he finds out about me knowing the truth and visiting my mother he will quite literally explode in anger. I now understand why he never wanted me to meet her. He was most likely scared that I would run away from his abuse just like she did with Howard. He is truly a sick man. A sick man that I want nothing to do with anymore.