Looking For You

Chapter 33 - Heart

Chapter 33 - Heart

[Christian’s POV]

The colours don’t match. It’s all over the place. There’s not even two colours side by side. Where has my ability to solve the Rubik’s Cube gone? What is wrong with me? I’ve been staring at this cube, trying to solve it since I came into my dorm yesterday after classes. Nothing has been on my mind apart from solving this cube… and Aimee. I haven’t seen Aimee since she disappeared after I told her what happened between Celine and I. She was clearly devastated and I don’t know what’s happened to her. I haven’t even bothered to go to her dorm to see if she’s been hiding from me.

Yesterday I texted her and I got no reply. Maybe she turned her phone off? Maybe she hasn’t checked her phone? Or, worst of all, she could be ignoring me which breaks my heart. But this is all my fault; if I didn’t run off when she was trying to comfort me, I wouldn’t have gotten in this sticky situation with Celine and Aimee. I would’ve never had sex with Celine, and Aimee wouldn’t be hiding from me. I’m the jerk here, there’s no need for Aimee to disappear out of nowhere.

I frown as I twist the sides of the cube, trying to match two blues together. It doesn’t work, so I just shut my eyes closed and put the Rubik’s Cube down, being reminded of Aimee — seeing as how she bought it for me as a gift. What if she doesn’t want to speak to me anymore? What if everything we’ve shared is going down the drain all like that? Then I would have no one to help me with my family problems in the future.

I sigh, lifting myself from lying on my bed to standing and stretching my back. My eyes are heavy, getting only a couple hours of sleep last night, due to tossing and turning and thinking about Aimee. She’s everything to me now, and if I lose her, I have nothing. I don’t bother to text her again, because there would be no point if she didn’t reply to my first message. So, though I hate to do this, I decide to search for Celine to ask her if she knows anything. I know she’s going to be all over me, thinking we’re a couple, but I have to break the ice on her and say that it was nothing. Oh, look at me, going around breaking everyone’s hearts.

I close my dorm door behind me, stuffing my phone in the pocket of my sweatpants. I decide to go down to the main parts of the college to hopefully catch Celine walking in the halls. The cold air in the atmosphere brings goosebumps to my arms, silently cursing to myself for not putting on a jacket. Turning into another hallway, conversation starts to build up as I near the main part of the college. Chances are I won’t find her because she could be anywhere, but as I push open the doors that lead into the cafeteria…

…I see Celine sitting with two other girls, laughing and smiling. What a coincidence.

I hesitate, knowing I would have to speak with Celine privately so that her friends don’t know what’s going on — unless she’s already told them which I wouldn’t care less about. Building up the courage to take my first steps, I keep my head low, not wanting to attract any attention from anyone else. I can’t see myself having feelings for Celine ever again because whenever I look at her, I think of her as someone I used to let out my anger. I shouldn’t have treated her like that, anything could happen to her now that it’s done. I just have to deal with the pain from now on.

“Hey, Celine.” I speak loud, catching all three girls’ attention. They automatically go silent, whipping their heads to me and focusing their eyes on me. I recognise Tiffany from my maths class, and the blonde haired girl is Sherri, I think. Celine looks at me with a happy grin, but my face displays nothing as I use a monotone voice to announce my presence. “Can I talk to you alone?”

Never letting my eyes wander from Celine’s brown eyes, the other girls immediately know who I want to speak to. They give Celine an excited look, probably eager to hear about it after we speak. I nod my head to them as a sign of thanks, giving them a little smile. They scurry off, but still remain in the cafeteria to watch. Gee, still no privacy. The temperature immediately rises as Celine pats the seat next to her, welcoming me next to her. This is not going to end well.