Lilac

Chap 12: Down the Rabbit Hole

***mention of Kim Jonghyun's death***

Another uneventful year went by for both Aila and Brian. Well except for the debate on whether to get a dog or not, no big conflicts arose in their relationship.

However something kicked Aila's heart, again.

December 21st, 2017, she decided to check up on her top Korean band, SHINee. It had been a while since she actually got to fully enjoyed the band. With everything that happened to her, she became distant from this world, but she always made sure to check on them, see their new music, watch some videos, things like this. She always felt guilty she couldn't give them the time to really support them, but Aila always remembered them and the other groups. Always made sure to check out their new content and laugh at their silliness.

However Aila was shocked, a bolt to her chest. Kim Jong-Hyun, a beautiful, talented soul, had committed suicide and his burial was the same day Aila decided to check up on SHINee. She couldn't help the tears that came to her eyes. She was upset, aghast, with unstoppable tears. She always dreamt to see them in concert. She hadn't had the chance to see them, and now this will never be able to happen.

And she felt guilty. Guilty she couldn't have giving them the time they deserved. She tried and she always remembered them, but she wished she had giving them her full love. As much as it hurt, Aila needed to find out what happened. She wiped the tears off her face and did some digging around. Saw the letter he left, saw the burial videos, saw how the rest of the members were broken, saw how shawols were crying with them.

It hurt her heart so much. She never really cared about an artist to this extent. This was the first time she felt she lost someone dear to her heart, and not once did she see them. She cried for two hours. And then decided to do what she was supposed to do, watch their videos, listen to their music and cried her eyes out again.

After some days, the Shinee Pandora station decided to play this one particular song: Mic Drop with Steve Aoki and Desiigner. As soon as Aila heard this song, she became infatuated with it. She loved the beat, the flow was crazy and it made her pumped up with energy. She liked the song and added to her playlist.

When January came around and Aila decided to lose weight, this song was first to get her in the mood to work out. However not once did she decide to look up the group BTS.

May came around. Aila was more than happy with her progress in her weight loss. She loved herself and Brian loved her and her curvy shape. But Aila was beginning to feel out of breath doing just simple things like tying her shoes.

By May, she has lost around 40lbs. She was down to 150 lbs, and because she had done it working out her body was beginning to tone up. She especially loved how her ass became bigger. She had an ass to begin with, but it was more defined and arounder. She was 5'4 and she loved how she looked now, even more than before. She became more confident and she just felt with more energy overall.

One non-eventful day, while Aila was finally relaxing from a long 12 hour shift at the hospital, she came across a video on Instagram about the top 5 most viewed music videos in the first 24 hours. She clicked, not surprised to see Taylor Swift and Justin Bieber, but when "Fake Love" came up, she became intrigued. Who the fuck are these guys? She immediately went to YouTube and searched them up.

If they were on this list meant they had to be good, right?

Aila hadn't even finished typing Fake Love when it came up in the search bar. She clicked on it, not paying attention to the BTS attach to it. The intro played, Big Hit Entertainment. Ok cool she thought. Then the video starts with the lamp, and a guy closing the curtains. A very good looking guy closing the curtains and then another guy appears. The music starts and so does the dance. Aila listens and pays attention but she didn't really like the song, after about a minute she decides to she didn't like it and was about to close the app.

Just when she was about to give up, there, next in line awas Mic Drop. She hesitated for a second, thinking Mic Drop? Wait.... it's my mic drop guys!?!! She has never clicked on a video so fast in her life. She couldn't believe it was her Mic Drop guys as she called them.

She watched the video, ignoring the way her heart sped up. And that was all it took for Aila to be infatuated with BTS.