Lilac

Chap 16: Tears

BTS had felt everything while they were performing. The panic attack when they began to perform Idol, the uncertainty they felt when their soulmate heartbeat become faint, like it was getting away from them.

They pushed thru the concert, trying their best to be professional and not disappoint Army. They tried to enjoy themselves as well. After all, they thought their soulmate was watching them, giving them a little push.

The whole time, they were just thinking what he would look like. They where 120% convinced their last soulmate was a man, like them. Which is weird to think they wanted a boy now. Back at the beginning, the older ones secretly wanted girls. But after Jungkook, Tae and Jimin came into the picture, they gave up on that thought, even when some of them were straight. Seokjin, Namjoon, Hoseok, and Taehyung were straight. The others bisexual.

When they first started, their intentions with each other were far from a romantic one. They got together for the purpose to perform and someday make a difference with their music.

Eventually, with the pulling of the bond, it developed into a relationship between them. The younger ones pretty much didn't know anything besides what they had experience with their hyungs.

The older ones became very conflicted and confused with each other. They didn't find men attractive, but were falling in love with each other.

It was very complicated. They didn't find other men attractive beside themselves, and yeah girls were still in the back of their minds, they were hormonal men, but they never did anything with girls, for the respect to their soulmates. After a very long perplex period of acceptance, they gave themselves the opportunity to fully love each other. The way the bond was telling them to. But their sexuality preference was still standing.

When news got out they were all soulmates, it was chaos in the world, well for those who cared about soulmates anyways.

They had a very hard time with the hate. They debut as a very strong hip-hop style group, but were all "fucking each other."

This only fueled their anger and motivated them to keep on trying. And the funny thing was at the beginning they weren't even comfortable with each other, not enough to even share a kiss, nonetheless fuck.

But soon people began to see how much respect they had for each other, how much love they had in what they did and the love they had for their fans. These "gay ass underground dogs" broke stereotypes and records around the world.

All of those moments brought them here, to City Field where they finally felt their last soulmate's heartbeat. The only thing holding them up was the fact the heartbeat was thumping in their bodies the whole entire time at the concert. This was giving them faith, something to hold onto.

Now it was their last break before the last song to say goodbye to army. But at this point they didn't know what to do. Did they just announce to the whole arena their soulmate was there? Or did they keep quiet hoping that maybe something was going to come up?

"Namjoon- hyung, Have you seen what's trending on Twitter?" Jungkook was in his phone, trying to distract himself, checking out what armies thought about the concert when a very odd hashtag caught his eye.

"#Army_GetWellSoon is trending." He looked at his phone very confused. Did something happen? Namjoon told him to come over to his chair, he was getting his hair and makeup touched up.

Namjoon made click and was shocked to his core with what it happened. There was a video getting shared, many, many times. The video began with the introduction to Idol, the sparks went into air and the screens in the middle opened up for them. However, they could hear someone shouting the question "are you ok?" multiple times somewhere to the side. The camera turned away from them coming up in stage to see a girl on the floor, fainted. The camera quickly went to the girl on the floor and someone else shaking them. But the girl on the floor was unconscious. This broke Namjoon's heart and he didn't know why this affected him so much. The girls around began to freak out and kept trying to awake the unconscious girl up but nothing happened. They started to scream for help and soon a security guy came and asked what was wrong.

"She just fell on the floor. It looked like she was having a panic attack then she fainted" was the response of the same voice they heard at the beginning of the video. The security scoped her up on his arms and he took her away from the field, then it starts back again. The others had began to crowd around the two, wanting to know what was going on. The video repeated itself. But when the camera turned to the girl and got closer they paused the video. You couldn't really see the girls face, her long curly hair was in the way. But her glasses were more than noticeable.

This was more than enough for them to know who she was. They felt jittery just from seeing her in a video. They felt the need to be with this girl. They began to cry, from joy that they at least got a glimpse of their soulmate, too shock because "he" was a she, a very beautiful girl in their eyes, and sadness because they saw what she went thru by herself.

"Oh my God, she can't possibly know what to do after this Namjoon" Seokjin's voice broke the silence that settled between them. None of them moved, they just watched the video again and again, pain making its way into their soul.

Namjoon, however, wanted to know more. So he kept scrolling through the posts, seeing all the positive messages army was sending to the girl. He kept scrolling until he found the original person who posted the video and the thread describing what happened. He quickly read it and then explained it to his other soulmates.

"So the girl that kept shouting, not the one that took the video, said she noticed when the curly haired girl got to the field because it looked like she was having a hard time with herself. The curly girl kept on having to take deep breath and she kept on holding on to her chest. Her body started to shake and when we finally came up that's when she collapsed on the floor. They didn't know who she was, she was alone and they didn't get a chance to get her name or info."

Silence was all that was felt when Namjoon finished telling them what happened. The feeling of failure was beginning to creep up under their skin, they couldn't protect their soulmates from themselves. The irony. They caused their last piece to lose consciousness.

"How are we going to fix this. Can you imagine how scared she must be." Jimin voiced this concern out. How are they going to be together and share their love?

Their manager had made his way to them, saw and heard everything. He saw the despair in their eyes.

"Leave it to me. I can check where they took her, who the security guard was, maybe he can point her out to us." He said this and the guys felt some hope creep in their hearts but then they felt their nerves pick up when they finally felt the heartbeat get closer.

"She's back!"

"Ok you guys go get ready to finish off. I'm going to go find the guard to help us find her."

They were so thankful to their manager, who they saw more like their bother. They took their places, with hope surging in their bodies.

When they came up, they felt the heartbeat so close. If they could just get off stage and go find her, their last piece, the one that would complete them. They were kept silently praying that Sejin-hyung could make it in time.

But soon after they came up, they felt the heartbeat grow faint until it disappeared.

They had experience pain and sorrow before, but nothing compared to the hole they felt in their chest once the heartbeat was completely out of reach. They tried so hard to keep their act together, so hard, until Jimin, at the very last minute of the concert started to cry.

That night, after cameras were turned off, it was all they did.

Cry.