Lilac

Chap 17: Lost

Aila didn't know how to explain to Brian she had found her soulmates. She still loved him. If anything bonding with the guys made her realize what she felt for Brian was real love, pure and capable of many things. She could not bring herself to say anything.

The fear he would be mad or leave was holding her back. How selfish was she? She wanted her soulmates and Brian. But now more than ever she knew Brian didn't belong to her. As much as they loved each other love, they didn't belong together.

It had been two weeks since the concert and Brian was beginning to notice things changing.

He found her studying and repeating things to herself. Her closet was beginning to not be organized, the way she liked it. She started at the sky more, usually saying how beautiful sunsets were. She drifted off to her own world more than before. But what made a domino effect was when she went out to the store at night. She couldn't do that. Her layer was too dark so as a result driving at night was one thing she couldn't do. But when she offered herself to do get milk and came back like nothing happened, a red flag went off in Brian's mind.

"Can you please tell me what is going on with you? Since when do you drive at night?"

Aila had gotten used to her new vision so quickly she completely forgot about this particular detail.

"Aila, what is going on? You have been acting weird lately. Ever since that damn fucking concert! You have been avoiding me!!" Brian didn't want to raise his voice, but his distress was making it easy for him.

"Amor. Please calm down ok." Aila took a deep breath, took his hand and guided him to sit down on their bed.

"I have been trying to find the way to tell you this. It's kinda big and I need you to promise me, but really promise me, you will keep this a secret. Please amor."

Brian looked at her. He noticed this was serious. Aila never really gets a this serious, ever.

"Ok. Now tell me. What's wrong?"

Aila took a deep breath, but her stomach kept doing flips.

"I found my soulmates at the concert." She said this so fast Brian almost, almost didn't catch it. Brian didn't say anything thou. He just kept on repeating this statement in his head.

"You... you found your soulmates? Like all of them?"

Aila could just shake her head yes.

"Aila, who are they. Why would you keep this from me?" Brian was hurt. He knew what this meant for their relationship but it was important, like really really important.

"Please promise me you won't freak out. And you can't tell anyone about this Brian."

Wow this must be serious.

"Yeah I promise."

She took a deep breath......

"They are BTS."

Brian furrowed his eyebrows and crunched his nose. What?

"Wait.... LIKE when you say BTS you mean like BTS the KPop group BTS?"

Aila shook her head yes. Again.

Wow, this is a lot to take in. Like a lot.

"Wait, you lied to me. About the concert then." Aila couldn't help but get teary thinking about that night. Brian reached up to her face, gently caressing her cheek.

"Why didn't you tell me nena?"

"I was afraid you were going to be mad and leave me!" At this, her tears came free.

"Hay amor, I would never do that. I love you. Now tell me everything, how it happened." They decided to cuddle on the bed while Aila said everything that happened. She even showed him the video that trended shortly after. His heart broke.

"Oh baby you are too strong sometimes. It's not good be like this all the time. I thought I did a good job tearing down your walls." He brought her closer to him, if possible, and kissed her head.

"I know but I didn't know what to do. They are BTS and I'm no one."

At this he made her move from his embrace, and looked at her eyes.

"Don't you dare say that. Those guys would be lucky to have someone so beautiful like you. You are strong, talented, smart, funny. You completely them amor. Please don't underestimate yourself ." He gave her a soft kiss.

"Those dumdasses don't know what they are missing cus seeing your ass bounce when you are on top of me is fucking wonderful."

"Are you for real Torres? I tell you I find my soulmates and you talk about my ass?"

She tried to sound mad but a smile escaped her lips.

"Baby, we both know I'm with you for your ass." They both laughed, Aila really needed this, to just talk to someone. She didn't know who she had saved in her last life to be with someone so understanding and caring like Brian. He was truly the better person between them.

"So they don't know who you are. Are you planning on reaching out to them?"

"How? How do I do that? And what about us?"

"I guess you are right and I don't mind sharing you with them." Aila laughed again and snuggled up to him. They stayed like that till they fell asleep.

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Over the first month Aila began to notice a change in her attitude, well more like she began to see an "obsession" with BTS.

She noticed how she watched anything related BTS, rewatched videos, interviews, and was always on Twitter to see updates.

If she missed a VLive from the guys it was like the world was ending. She felt like she needed to be around them, she found herself thinking about how their hands would feel, how their lips would taste, how their hands would touch her if they could.

She became worried about herself but she knew it was the pulling of the bond, her soul wanted desperately to be with them, and photos and videos were the only thing to satisfied her impatient soul.

It took a lot but slowly she began to convince herself they were BTS, and she was never going to be with them. She created a bond of admiration, a bond of a fan, a bond of support towards her idols. She started to see them as artists and not her soulmates.

It took a lot of will, good thing she was strong. Months passed and the intensity she felt died down and was replaced with admiration for the group. She was proud of how much they had accomplished.

She also tried to spend her free time doing anything to keep her occupied. She went back to school, for clinical trials. Taking both campus and online classes. She got interested in motorcycles, wanted to learn how to ride one, and she did. She learned how to play the guitar. She wasn't an expert but she had the basics down. She painted more, took more photos, went in walks at the park more.

Brian was a big help too. He continued to shower her with love and was patient with her. He reminded her how beautiful she was. They continue to go to the gym. Aila didn't really cared for a perfect body, but it help her take her mind of things. She did want her ass to be big, mostly because it drove Brian crazy.

Months went by, and the thirst she felt towards the guys slowly became one of admiration for an artist; someone that inspired her to be and do better. The little romantic thoughts she felt at the beginning were long gone. She didn't even remember what they were now.

Months after, BTS announced the Love Yourself: Speak Yourself Tour. Aila remembered the promise she made at Citi Field. She was able to get tickets for MetLife both May 18th and 19th, now it was just another trip to plan.