Lilac

Chap 47: Truth

****italics means it was said in Korean***

Aila woke up early surrounded by seven very good looking men.

She couldn't help wonder about her situation. If things did work out and she managed to change her bond then what? Would she leave her family to move across the world for them?

It's not like they could do it for her, they are far more important than she would ever be.

Could they get married? Like when have eight people gotten married before? She knew laws when it came to soulmate marriage were very flexible, specially because of multiple soulmates. But how could they get married? Seven men married to each other and to one women?

How about having kids?

Aila didn't want neither of those situations: marriage or kids.

Now she was stuck with seven men who wanted at least one kid in their lifetime. What would she tell her kids? You are all half-siblings to some but full-siblings to others? Do the kids just call all of them dad? How to explain one woman having kids by seven men? Soulmates or not, this didn't please Aila.

Now how was she going to explain to them she didn't want to get married or have kids.

Moving away from her family, more because her mother's cancer, was not an option.

She began to think about how her bond felt with them. She was more open to the thought of them being her soulmates, more than before. She still viewed them as talented artists, but now she could see they had some type of interest in her. This, in the back of her mind, was unbelievable. She took a look at herself. Her insecure arose but everything was working.

They had smaller waists than her. Their skin was blemish and scars free, at least as far as Aila had seen. They had far less body hair than she did. She had to wax her mustache every few days, not to mention how often she shaves her legs, more now that she's around them. She never felt like this with Brian.

Brian.

The pain in her chest came back at once, the weight of rocks hitting her and taking her air. She was still not over him, over the love they shared. More than anything she hated the fact she was so weak and had these feelings. Brian had completely changed the way she was. He had impacted her life, making her change from how she was before.

Aila's pain was so much, she jolted her soulmates awake. All of their chest contracted with pressure, filling their veins with cold sweat. They had never left loss like the one they began to feel. They woke up with tears in their eyes, which resembled the ones Aila had.

Namjoon, who had finally got to cuddle Aila while they slept, perked his head up and frantically looked at this soulmates. Who was feeling such great loss? Such heartbreak? But the only thing he noticed was all of the looking around and wiping tears off their faces.

He heard a panicked Seokjin ask everyone if they were fine, all replied yes.

Like a switch being flipped, they looked at Aila, who had turned her head, face buried on the pillow, shoulders shaking. More panic made the bond heavy.

They all moved closer to her, not caring how they looked, and made sure to make contact with her.

"Aila, please tell us what wrong." Namjoon's voice pleaded Aila with some type of explanation.

They had never felt this type of grief. They had experience the grief of loosing a family member, someone close to the heart by blood, or a loved friend, but not this.

It was hard to explain. They felt great loss, but it was clouded with the feeling of something that could be. It was tearing their hearts apart, how beautiful it would have been: the future. They felt love, love that could never be demonstrated, because it never should have happened, but it did.