Automatic Love

•chapter 5•

You know the moment when you saw something that you couldn't believe that actually happened so you just continue to stare and blink one more time to see if it's real or not? Yeah that's how I was feeling at the moment.

This can't be real. This has to be some kind of joke. There was a girl wearing his basketball jersey and it wasn't just any kind of girl, it was Paulina. When she noticed me, she covered her mouth and had a shocked look on her face.

So she's the reason why Kelvin has been acting suspicious and distant lately. I unwrapped my arms away from his torso and backed up. My mind was still processing it so I was speechless at first. Before I said a word, I looked at both of them one more time for a couple of seconds.

Do you know the feeling when you feel betrayed? Used? Played? That's exactly how I felt at the moment as well. "Brea-" I slapped him as hard as I can before he was able to finish his sentence. "IS THIS SOME KIND OF JOKE KELVIN?! DO YOU THINK PLAYING WITH MY EMOTIONS IS A FUCKING GAME?!" I raged.

It's been a while since I've been this furious. I couldn't believe that he's been cheating on me with someone that makes me feel so insecure about myself. He just stood there quietly looking dumbfounded. "And you got nothing to say about this? I can't be here." I said and stormed off to leave quickly.

"Brea wait!" He shouted.

I felt his hand grip my wrist. My blood was boiling and I felt my heart shatter into pieces. Both of us had stopped for a couple of seconds.

"Let me explain everything." He said.

I turned around to take a good look at his sorry ass. "Okay then tell me how long it's been since you've been with her?!" I pushed him aggressively.

He backed up a little bit and had a guilty look on his face. "It's been uh..half a year." He confessed. Half a year? I felt my heart sinking deeper in me. How did I not notice this sooner? "Half a fucking year." I crossed my arms and shook my head. How could I be so stupid?

"But-" "How could you do this to me? To us? What did I do for you to take this path? Am I not good enough for you? Did I do something that pissed you off deeply?!" I cut him off.

He stood there in silence rubbing his neck and looking down. "There you go again being speechless, how pathetic. Kelvin, we've been together for almost TWO years and I stayed beside you for such a long damn time and did so much for you!" I yelled at him as I felt my voice shake and tears falling down my face.

He walked up to me quickly and placed both of his hands on my arms. "Get your filthy hands off of me!" I said aggressively and pushed him away. "Instead of giving up on you when things weren't turning out well for us these past few months, I chose to stay with you and believed that there was some potential and that things could really work out!" I confessed. Can we please just talk?" He lied.

A revolting look appeared on my face when those words came out of his mouth. "Shut up, I'm not done!" I yelled and stomped on the concrete. "Brea please-" "If you didn't want me anymore, why didn't you end it?! I'd rather let you break up with me than me finding out that you've been cheating on me for fuck sake!" I cried. "This was obviously never working out so there is no point of me being here." I said as I pointed at both of us a few times.

It looked like he was about to cry. "From now on, don't try to reach out to me. Don't come over to my apartment and if you see me, don't come near and just act like I and none of this exists!" I confessed and walked away.