Endlessly - a sheo story

Chapter 25

Shai PoV

Theo still hasn't called me, I'm wondering why. Maybe something's wrong? He promised last night that he would call me as soon as he woke up. It's almost 11 and Theo's not a person who can sleep so late.

I pick up my phone from the kitchen counter and dial his number, when no one picks it up, I try again.

After six times of trying, I give up.

There's a knock on the door and Miles steps in, looking very concern.

"What's...?" I start.

"Shai, you need to see this." Miles hands me his phone and I look at a picture of myself and Nahko, it looks like we're kissing.

"What the fuck?!" I say in disgust and look up at Miles.

"It's not true, is it?" He asks nervous, he doesn't sound like he wants to know the answer.

"Of course it's not true!," I tell him. "He's Nahko for god's sake, I would never do that. He's my old friend from high school."

Miles sighs in relief, "The whole internet's going crazy about it right now."

"But it's photo shopped! How can they not see that?"

That's when I realize why Theo didn't call me, why he won't pick up the phone: Because he saw this. Because he saw this and probably thought I'm cheating on him.

"Shai? Are you alright?" Miles asks. He must've seen the look on my face.

"Theo..." I whisper. "That's why he..."

Miles looks afraid, "Theo what?"

I snap out of my gaze. "He hasn't called me like he promised, and he won't pick up the phone. It's because he saw this picture. Of course it is."

Tears start streaming down my face and cover my mouth with a hand. Miles pulls me into a hug and strokes my hair with a hand.

"What am I going to do?" I ask, my voice cracking.

Miles pulls back, "You need to talk to him. Tell him that it's not true."

I nod and hand for my phone on the kitchen island, before I dial Theo's number, I take a deep breath.

Luckily, Theo picks up this time, he sounds very hurt and grumpy when he says: "What?"

"Theo-," I start, I honestly don't know what to say but I somehow find the words. "Look, I-I'm... I'm so sorry, babe. The picture..."

Theo groans, "What about the picture? Do you think you can just tell me now, how sorry you are for kissing your old friend in public? Without even taking care of your boyfriend or all the paparazzi? I don't know what to say, Shai. I don't understand how... After all we've done together. How could you even think of it? The times you said you loved me, did you even mean it?"

The tears stream down my cheeks, and I cover my mouth with a hand to hold in a sob, as I hear how wounded he sounds. He really thinks that I did it.

"The picture isn't real, Theo!" I shout, desperate after his voice being happy again as usual. "I don't know what they did to it, but one thing is sure: It's not real!"

"How can you prove that?"

I sink a lump and press my lips together to stop crying. "I-I..."

"huh?"

"I can't prove it, Theo. I can't prove it," I whisper. "I just need you to trust me, Theo. Do you even think that I would do such a thing? Deep down in your soul, don't you know me well enough to know that I would never do anything like that?"

I glance sideways at Miles, he's watching me closely a few meters from me, his arms are crossed over his chest and his lips are pressed hard together.

"I don't know, Shai!," Theo shouts, there's a sound of something breaking in the background. "I've asked myself that question so many times the last hours. God I've asked myself that question many times. Do I even know you? I don't know, Shai. I don't know!"

I close my eyes and turn away from Miles as tears stream down my cheeks again. "Theo..." My voice is just a whisper, I don't even try to make it louder. I know he can hear me. "I didn't kiss him, he's Nahko for god's sake! Not even close to being as sexy, handsome and kind as you. He can actually be a truly dick sometimes. He's nothing compared to you, baby. Nothing."

Theo groans and I can hear him fall onto his bed, the bed which we spent so many hours in together, both awake and asleep. God how I miss it.

"I love you," I whisper.

"Do you really?," Theo asks. How does he even dare to ask such a question?

"I do, Theo," my voice seems to get smaller and smaller for every sentence. "I love you with my whole heart, you're my other half. I don't know what I would do without you, Theo. I love you, I want you to know that. I don't care if you don't love me back, because I love you, and nobody can ever take away my feelings for you."

Theo is completely silent, after a few moments, the beep sound in my ear tells me that he hung up.

Theo's PoV

I hang up because I don't want to hear Shai's small voice anymore, her voice that always lightens up my world like nothing else. Her voice that affects me in such a way that I can forget everything and everyone around me.

I fall down from my bed and clench my fists in the soft duvet as I scream into it. I love Shai of my whole heart, I never want her out of my life.

Memories rush through my head. Our first kiss; the many hours we've spent on set together; us making love several times; me showing Shai my hidden place in the woods; me telling her about how I almost committed suicide, and how Cookie saved me; us singing and dancing with Elliot and Lily in the living room, the day we were feeling so infinite and happy that no one could ever ruin our moment.

I want to experience all these times together with her again, repeat them over and over again and again and again, never let them go.

Did she really kiss with that Nahko guy? Or is she right, by telling me that it's all photo shopped? I don't know, and it will probably take some time to choose which one I believe the most.

I'm sure I only want the latter to be true, but what if it really is the first thing that's the truth?

Shai's PoV

After I told Miles to leave, in a courteous way of course, I crumble together in a ball on my bed.

Thinking of all the amazing things I've done with Theo the last year.

What if we will never get good moments like that again? What if he will never forgive me for what I did not do with Nahko?

I can't even think of what will happen with me if I'm going to live the rest of my life without Theo. I don't think I'm capable of that.

I press the sleeve of Theo's shirt to my nose, it smells like him; fresh air and his cologne. I love that smell, it's the smell of safety.

Smelling him, I realize how much I miss him, how much I love him. How much I wish he was right here, right now, with his strong arms wrapped around me, helping me to fight off all the bad things. How much I miss his body and his lips against mine.

One thing I sure learned today; You don't know what you've got until you're missing it a lot. Until it's gone.

A/N:

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