First Love, The Sinner & The Saint

Dr Lance.

Jaxon

I was sat at work looking through my emails, the day was going so slow.
I suddenly realised I still had Sofia's email logged in on my laptop.
I know its been 3 month's since she had contacted me, and in that time I had not murdered one single person.
I thought 'A little sneaking isn't going to make me turn into a sicko again' I laughed to myself.

They all were junk emails and some dating websites, but then there was one that looked important from a Dr Lance.
I had to open the email what if something was wrong with Sofia?
I opened it anxiously, It said 'abortion clinic' I was confused. 'surely that can't be for my Sofia' I thought, "we were careful, weren't we?" I asked myself out loud. But thinking back to it, no we weren't.,

Anger rushed through my body, I smashed everything I could see in my office, paper weights, a photo of Ezra and I, even my laptop screen. I was pissed.
I had to know what was going on.
I decided I was going to get in my car and sort this out.

I needed to go to the Shop to buy myself some whisky, this would be the first drink I had had since last seeing Sofia.

After I got the bottle I went back to my car and opened it, downing half the bottle straight away.
I opened up the internet on my phone, and got to work googling Dr Lance. Within minutes I had found the address to her office.
I emailed Sofia;

'Why are you ignoring me? Where are you?
I've been to your dads and youre not there?
Who are you with? Is it another man?
If you dont message back asap, something bad is going to happen, you know me Sofia, you know what I will do..'

She knew exactly what I was capable of, she needed to answer me fast.

I finshed the bottle and sat in the car for a good 45 minutes, nothing.. she hadn't emailed me back. By this point I had had enough, I turned the key and started the car, ready to drive to Dr Lance's office.

Once outside the office I looked at the building. Did I really want to do this? I was 3 months clean, but this was about sofia, this was different.
I got out of the car and headed inside.

"Dr Lance?" I demanded as I got to reception. No one knew where she was, I saw an office with her name on and let myself in, there lay abortion tools on a metal table.
I didn't think twice. I grabbed the tools and stuffed them in my pocket, then I saw a letter on her desk, her home address was written on it, I grabbed it and left.

I cant remember what happened next, them few hours were a blur, all I knew was I had broke multiple laws, drink driving, breaking and entering, kidnap.. that was a big one.
I didn't know how but Dr Lance was in the cell in my dolls house, everything was blank.

There was a knock at my door, 'who's that' I though to myself. I opened it, there stood Sofia.
I couldn't believe my eyes, she was here, this was terrible timing. actually.. the timing was perfect

"Was the baby mine?" I asked her, drunk as shit.

She just looked at me and nodded. that was all I needed, I grabbed her by her hair and dragged her down to the basement, held her up to the cell door and showed her Dr Lance inside.
"Was it her?" I demanded. Sofia was sobbing at this point but I didn't care. "Yes"
I let her go and she fell to the floor, she was going to watch this one, this one was all her fault. I dragged her into the cell with me and looked at her "This is because of you Sofia" I said coldly as I looked over to Dr lance.

I tied sofia up so she couldn't get in the way, "why do you do this to me" I asked her, she kept crying saying "I'm sorry" "why the fuck didn't I get a say?!" I screamed at her.. tears trembling down my face.

I could hear Dr lance screaming, I walked over to her and said "no one can hear you darling."
I picked up one of the tool's she used to Abort my child and thought 'let's see how you like it' I grabbed it and shoved it inside her, "Yes, it isn't nice is it you took the only one good think away from me" I screamed in her face, Sofia had gone quiet. I dropped the tool with blood on it from Dr lance.

I walked over to Sofia and grabbed her face, and said "you told me you loved me" I pulled down her gag and then said coldly "look what you make me do Sofia."
she was screaming "Jaxon stop it, it wasn't her fault."

I was too angry to care. "its you or her sweetheart and I've got to pick, unfortunately I love you more than anything so you are not an option. I am so angry with you Sofia, I should have killed you back when I first met you. You dirty piece of shit" I yelled at her, so many emotions were coming out. I didn't mean half of them.

"Can I ask you a question?" Came her reply. "we ended because I was to young, I had been your secret for as long as I can remember, I didn't want an innocent child coming out of this mess"

'THAT WASN'T YOU DECISION TO MAKE SOFIA" I shouted across to her holding my head thinking 'how am I going to get away with this' I didn't want to get away with it anymore, I had had enough.

I went over to Dr Lance  and put my hands around her throat and strangled her, watching her take her last breath, it didn't even faze me anymore.
I felt completely empty, I didn't even enjoy strangling her, I didn't enjoy Sofia watching me I don't even recognise myself anymore.

Sofia looked at me tears in my eyes,
"I'm 15 Jaxon, if I had this baby you would go to prison"
and just like that, out of no where, reality hit me like a slap in the face.
she had done this to protect me and I have done the worst thing possible, I had killed someone in cold blood in front of her as revenge for something she did to protect me, it was official; I was the worst human being ever.

For the first time in 15 years, I did something I hadn't done since my mom died. I broke down in tear and sobbed uncontrollably, only this time it wasn't tears of relieve it was tears of regret.

I went over to Sofia and untied her and said "you're free to go now" but instead of leaving, which I was sure she would, she came over and put her arms around me and said softly
"don't worry baby,  I'll help you take care of the body, no one need's to know what happened today" she smiled that innocent at me.

"Why are you still here" I snapped at her. "If I was you, I would have run away the moment I laid eye's on me."
she just replied with "me and you ain't that different, we do things to protect those we love."
'How is this girl so understanding' I thought to myself, I got lucky with this one...