First Love, The Sinner & The Saint

Heart to heart

Jaxon

I couldn't believe what Ezra had just asked me. So I replied
"all your life I've kept you safe I've made sure you were fed, happy, protected from mom, I wouldn't ever kill you."

I went upstairs and got 3 glasses and my whiskey, headed back downstair's this evening was make or break for us all.

I put the glasses on the table next to Lola, looked up at her "sorry baby cakes this is a private party" I said as put a sheet over her head, call me crazy but I'm just a thoughtful guy.

I showed Ezra and Sofia the bottle, proving the seal wasn't broken, I had made a name for myself after all.

I poured 3 drinks and handed them to Sofia and Ezra through the grid in the cell door.
This converstaion didn't really involve sofia so I told her to chill on her social media she moaned that she had left her phone in my car so I gave her mine. I knew she wouldn't call the police on me.

"So Ezra how much do you know.." I began.
"I know your fucking a kid for one..."
Obviously. "besides that?" I said.
"You shouldn't worry what I know, you should be worried about how I know!"

I hadn't even thought if that. "what do you mean? how do you know?" I was curious now.
"Ryder called me in a meeting today discussing Bekah, I interviewed this kid here" he pointed to Sofia, who was sat on youtube watching make-up tutorials "Not a kid ay" he mumbled
"I already knew that, you didn't really answer my question what are you doing here Ezra?" I was losing my patience.

" I went into Ryder's office to give her my interview tape's and she had a whole ass board on you Jaxon and little miss make-up tutorial here!" He said.
Sofia just pulled a face and said it doesn't hurt to know how to do perfect eyebrows..
She was taunting us. "Sofia be quite a minute, what's on the board Ezra?" I asked.
"It was just stuff.. What I'm more concerned about is the fact Bekah was lay in the morgue with your pen in her hand, not that smart ay?" Ezra drank his drink.

'Shit' I thought to myself, what a rookie mistake to make, everyone would know that I was to blame

Ezra must of noticed that I was thinking because he spoke again
"don't worry I took the cap while the temp wasn't looking"
he was helping me?
"Oh so your both bad asses" Sofia said as she looked up from my phone smirking.
"why did you do that Ezra?" I asked.
Ezra began...
"I remeber when I was 6 I got toothpaste all over the bathroom sink, mom was furious shouting who's wasting my money again, I was in my bedroom scared when I heard you come out and say it was you, I didn't understand why you did that until I heard her start to beat you, you protected me when I was 6 years old and continued to do so my whole life what makes you think I would grass you up, you do what you do for your own reason's and I really do understand that."

We both had tear's rushing down our faces, I heard Sofia sniffling too, she was in tear's too.
At that point I just gave up, I opened the door and let them out I couldn't do this to my own brother.

"you're free to go Ezra, I wouldn't hurt you or hold you against your will." I said to him.

instead of leaving Ezra walked over to the table and took a seat pouring himself another whisky' "I'm not done" he replied.
I went and took a seat next to him Sofia had now come off the phone and sat with us.

"I might be able to get over you killing Bekah but these other women didn't deserve this." Ezra said.
"But all these women were strippers most of these women had kid's that they were neglecting so that they could do drugs and take there clothes  off just like Debbie." I tried to defend myself.
"That isn't a reason, wasn't Sofia a stripper why was she different?" I looked at Sofia, she looked at me.

"Well because she was a good person, she wasn't a mom negelcting her child she was a teenager trying to earn money to send herself to school because her dad's couldn't afford it." I defended Sofia.
"I understand that, but just because you got to know sofia's reason for being there doesn't make her different, no offence Sofia, they could of had their own reason's too one life isn't worth more than another."Ezra was preaching now.

"you wouldn't understand Ezra you had a sheltered life, I was beat by mom daily, beat by men she brought into our house! christmas day he gave me two black eye's, I was 9 year's of age. Then I was sexual abused by the women that was sent to help me get away from mom at the age of 12 until I was 14 and left school because of her mistake's, she was my first kill you were upstair's in your room at the time, I had sent you to bed early and even thought she knew you were there she tried to rape me again. I didn't mean to kill her it was an accident I just wanted to make her sick so I put some plant food in her drink."

Sofia was watching the tear's run down my face listening to every word, I couldn't have her seeing me this way or thinking of me as someones victim so I asked her if she could please leave, she came over and gave me a cuddle and apologised to Ezra, then told me she would see me later and left with my phone still in her hand, I didn't stop her I had nothing to hide from her.

"I didn't know all this was happening to you, I thought mom only hit you once the night with the toothpaste, she alway's told me you were staying with your friends you were never home Jaxon you didn't protect me." Ezra said.

"that's because I spent most my life in the Fucking basement, everytime you cried or spilled a drink I took the blame, the beating and the basement time, once you were down there with me you wouldn't rember you were only 5.
I made it into a game, I read you stories till you fell asleep, I got you food because sometimes she forgot to feed us, you were my only reason for me not ending my own life at the age of 7. I would of killed myself if it wasn't for you" I broke down. he came over and held me tight. " I dont want your sympathy Ezra, I just want you to understand."

"I understand what you did and why, but we can't go back to the way we were, I will help make all this go away at the police department but in return you have to promise never to touch an innocent women again, and don't try to contact me again. Also don't contact Sofia again." Ezra said calmly. I owed him that much.

After saying all that everything was finally out in the open, he put the pen cap on the table and got up and left the doll house and my life. maybe this was for the best I didn't want to hold him back anymore I was so proud of the man he become.

I went back upstairs. Sofia was sitting on my doorstep, I went over and sat next to her taking my phone from her hands. "I'm sorry Sofia" I said. "I can't see you again.. I made a promise to my brother.. I'll always love you sweetheart"
and with that she got kissed my head, got up and walked out of my life again, maybe for the last time.