Oneshots

Void | Technoblade

Darkness.
That's all I see, and all I feel. No pain, nothing, just numb. This is a strange place, the void. They make you feel dark, numb and alone while making you feel like you're being watched at the same time. Where are you? Who are you? What are you? If you hear me, please respond. No response. I don't know if anyone can hear me. I don't know if I'm alone, or I'm just in my own little bubble. I don't know where I am. I don't even know what I am. I tried to look at myself. It didn't work. Maybe it did, I just don't see anything. Just black. It's like an endless void. Where I just fall. I fall, but I never land. That's all it is and all I am. A void. A ghost, a spirit. Just please, get me out of the void. Please. If there is anyone out there, just free me. I felt an emptiness inside of me. I've never felt this feeling before. I have felt pain, I have felt anger, but never emptiness
This void, it makes you think back on your past life. It helps you cherish the good moments while also forcing you to replay the bad ones in your head. It forces me to rethink my high school years. It makes me run them through in my head, re doing every small mistake. It makes me remember these small details, details that I would rather forget.
To me, high school was complete and utter shit. My grades were okay, but the bullying made it all just so unbearable. It didn't teach me anything. It just left me with a heck ton of scars, multiple failed suicides and permanent mental scarring.
Everyone told me to be myself in high school. They told me to just act natural and I would survive. They all told me that I would be accepted, that there would be plenty of people to talk to. They were wrong. Everyone was so extroverted, and I was just different. The thing with high school students is that they are like young children, they will make fun of you for being unique. But they are not the same as small children, for they will take it to the next level. They make fun of you for their own enjoyment, and the more hurt you are, the more fun they have. So like kids, they hurt you, but the way they hurt you makes it many times worse.
I wish I could redo my high school years. To learn to stand in, to be another normal kid. To still be alive. To be happy again. To be out of this void. 

(I wrote this a long time ago, so I'm sorry if it's awful. And also, the first part about the void was for a different book, but I decided to not publish that one cause it's literal shit and I'm way too lazy to edit the like 15 chapters I've already written. But if you have any thoughts, questions or feedback, please tell me.)