Am I dead?
Where am I?
I looked at my side.
Wow! This is weird. I can move my eyes but not my body. I feel numb.
Am I dreaming?
My vision is blurred. I can barely see them. Almost like a silhouette.
What happened?
Ah....yes....
Our car was ambushed and I got shot.
I need to, at least, move my finger so that they know I am awake.
Wait....Am I really?
At some point, I just wish this is just a freaking dream. A nightmare perhaps.
Someone really wanted me dead.
I tried to utter a sound. I desperately moaned.
"Anak!?" Narinig ko ang natatarantang si Mommy. Bakas sa boses niya ang matinding pag-iyak.
I saw her figure moving outside the room. Am I at the ICU?
Moments later, I saw doctors rushing.
I heard someone asking me to squeeze their hand. I did but not too tight. I still feel numb.
"She's okay now. Her muscles are responding. However, her body needs more rest to fully regain her energy."
I heard them talking about transferring me to the regular hospital floor.
Where's Zeno? He should be here, right?
Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog ulit ako.
Nang magising ako, nakarinig ako ng mga taong nagtatalo. Hindi naman ganong kalakas pero naririnig ko pa rin sila kahit papaano.
"S-Shut.....up...." I said to them.
Agad silang nagsilapitan sa akin. My vision is now okay compared to last time.
Si Savannah ang una kong napansin. Namamaga ang mga mata niya. Nakita ko din sila Sera at iba pang mga kaibigan ko.
Are they allowed to come to this room? Ang dami nila masyado. Masyado akong nao-overwhelm.
I tried to get up. Victoria helped me. Medyo masakit ang katawan ko mula sa tiyan pababa ng hita ko.
I immediately touched my tummy. My baby is okay. Right?
Nakita kong dumalo sila mommy at Gertrude. Andon din si George. He looked restless.
"How's my baby?" I asked.
No one dared to answer. Parang may kung anong bumukol sa lalamunan ko.
Tumingin ako kay mommy. "Mommy?" I sounded desperate.
I have a hunch but I don't want to entertain it. I won't.
The doctor came and explained to me everything.
"....you had miscarriage." His last words broke me.
Parang hindi ako makahinga.
No that's not true.... Muli akong tumingin kay mommy para kumpirmahin ang lahat...
Ilang segundo ang lumipas bago siya tumango habang umiiyak.
Parang hindi ako makahinga. This is too much for me.
"C-Can you all leave me alone? P-please?"
Nang tuluyan na silang makaalis ay siyang pagbuhos ng luha ko. Ang sakit.
