Fearless (Book 1 of the "Fearless" Series) [Completed]

Chapter 11 - Gossip Girls

London, England
April 29, 2012

[Karsyn]

I'm not sure how much sleep I got last night because my mind was on overdrive. Nick and I laid in bed for the longest time, talking and drinking champagne until we ordered room service. Then we realized that it was more or less time for breakfast, so we ate and went back to bed for a little bit. I dozed off for a little bit, waking up to find him cuddled up next to me with his arm around me.

I eventually showered and changed back into my dress from the night before and Nick stayed there in bed, watching me the entire time. I knew he needed his rest because he had another long day and I needed to get to Emmileigh's place.

I told him goodbye and left the hotel. It was the first "walk of shame" that I had ever done. You know, leaving someone's apartment after staying there the night before to have sex and wearing the same clothes you had on the night before. In my 30 years, I had never spent the entire night with a guy before.

I would always leave or the guy would always leave, even if it was three in the morning. This was totally different.

I kept playing in my mind the things that he had said to me the night before, especially as we laid there in bed after our second round of sex. He was totally right. I was scared of him, scared to be with anybody and sometimes, scared to be myself.

He had only known me just over a week, but he probably knew me just as well as Emmileigh did.

I jumped out of my thoughts as I sat in the back of the taxi, hearing my phone go off. I expected a text from Nick, but it was a text from Emmileigh.

You coming back anytime soon?

I replied, telling her I was on my way when another window popped up. It was Nick.

Remember what I said. Stop being scared. You have the power and money to do whatever you want. Do it. See you later :)

I groaned, leaning my head back on the taxi cab seat. I was already getting too invested with him and that wasn't good.

[/Karsyn]

[Emmileigh]

I sat on the couch replaying the previous night over in my head when I heard my front door open. I couldn't help it, but I jumped up and walked into the hall to see Karsyn walking in still dressed up from the night before.

"Walk of shame, huh?" I grinned as she turned around and blushed.

"God don't. I was so embarrassed walking through the hotel lobby, looking like a prostitute."

I shook my head. "You look great, Karsyn." She removed her shoes before dumping her purse on the floor.

"I need a shower, another one, and some comfy clothes. What time we leaving for VIP?"

I bit my lip. "I was kinda hoping we could skip VIP."

"Uh oh? What's up?"

I smiled at Karsyn. "Kinda need girl time."

Karsyn nodded. "Got ya. In that case, I'll shower and we can talk."

"Yes, you go wash all that sex off you," I laughed as Karsyn flipped me off before disappearing into the bedroom she had claimed as hers since she'd been in London.

By the time Karsyn re-emerged all clean and redressed I'd made us lunch and was sitting on the couch. She silently joined me before grabbing her plate of food.

"So..." I asked her, looking at her as she rearranged her sandwich.

"So.. what?" She grinned before taking a bite.

"Come on.. tell me. Was he as good as you thought, or a minute man?"

Karsyn laughed. "Definitely no minute man. And yes.. fucking A-mazing!"

I laughed. "How many times?"

"Twice."

We both giggled and continued to eat our lunch. I didn't really know how to bring up the whole Donnie thing. I guess I was too excited for Karsyn to want to bring her off her high.

"So what did you do last night?" Karsyn took some of her drink before looking at me.

"Well..." I put my now empty plate down. "I had a visitor."

"Not the creep from upstairs again?" Karsyn groaned, making me smile. The guy who lived above me had made it clear he liked me, and constantly knocked on my door to see if I "needed anything."

"Hell no. Donnie, actually."

Karsyn started choking on her drink, making me laugh. "Donnie? How did he know where you lived?"

"He went to GroundCtrl to get my address. Even though you paid for the VIPs, it had my address on there. He turned up last night speaking with some phony British accent into the intercom. I didn't let him in, but someone else did and he was here. In here.. being all hot and stuff."

"Uh oh. Did you sex him?"

I shook my head. "No.." I answered quietly, glancing at Karsyn.

"Ah ok. Now I see why we need girl time."

I nodded at Karsyn before leaning back into the chair.

"You're scared."

I shrugged. I knew Karsyn wasn't asking, and was pointing it out that I was scared. I wasn't really sure what I was.

"This is Donnie. Guy is HOT on you. Donnie Fuckin' Wahlberg. The guy you have lusted after for the past year or so, and the guy you loved as a kid. What's stopping you?"

"My head. My heart. I don't want to fall madly in love when I know he won't feel like that in return."

Karsyn sighed. I knew that was something she was worried about too. "Em, you know I know how that feels. But sometimes.. sometimes you have to gamble. Donnie likes you, I know this. You want me to tell you to do it? Then this is me telling you to. Go for it, sleep with the man of your dreams, then we can compare? Ok?"

I laughed. "You just want to know who's got the bigger dick."

"Basically." Karsyn winked before laughing. "In all seriousness though, I really think you should just let yourself go. I mean, had you not had these worries last night, would you of gone ahead with it?"

I thought back to how I'd felt the night before. "Yes, I probably would have. He was so hot. Right here on my couch."

"You made out?"

I nodded. "He turned up and I was in my Sponge Bob pajamas."

"Oh shit!" Karsyn started laughing.

"Yeah, that's what I thought, but then.. he started asking me stuff, and then we were making out. I was on his lap.. he kissed along to my ear and told me in that back rub voice that he liked Sponge Bob. Seriously Karsyn, I could of done him right there. I expected him to think I was childish or some shit."

Karsyn reached over and took my hand. "Emmi, he definitely doesn't think that. We should do something together.. me, you, Nick and Donnie. Like a double date kinda thing."

"In public?"

Karsyn pulled a face before nodding. "You're right. Then they should come here."

"Nick Carter AND Donnie Wahlberg in MY house?"

Crazy.

[/Emmileigh]