Fearless (Book 1 of the "Fearless" Series) [Completed]

Chapter 28 - Drama

May 18th, 2012
Melbourne, Australia

[Emmileigh]

I felt like a zombie, a zombie with a trillion thoughts buzzing through its mind at one hit.

Karsyn had stayed up with me until sleep overcame her, and then I was left to thinking.

There was a possibility that I was pregnant with Donnie's baby, and I was freaking out. I couldn't have a baby, not now. I wasn't ready, and me and Donnie definitely weren't ready.

Karsyn had told me to buy a test, but I couldn't. Not here, not with so many fans hanging around. All it would take would be for one person to see me buy that test, and the world would know. And they would know before Donnie did.

So I decided to wait and find out when we get home. I could see my own doctor, and determine then what I was going to do.

And in the meantime, keep this little problem to myself.

I just hoped Karsyn kept it to herself, too.

[/Emmileigh]

[Karsyn]

Well, we had a good two days before fans realized were already in Australia. Now fans are all crowded outside the hotels with posters and screaming out even Howie and Danny's names. You don't see that shit in America.

I had to get a few things from a store, mostly some Shampoo and Conditioner and some foundation because I was almost out, so I snuck out of the hotel and took a taxi to a store not far from the hotel.

And while I was in there, which I made sure to look around first, I bought a pregnancy test for Emmileigh.

I knew she couldn't wait until she got home to London after the tour and frankly, I couldn't wait either. She didn't need to keep it from Donnie that long either even if she wasn't pregnant.

I made sure it wasn't able to be seen in the bag and after arriving back at the hotel, I saw AJ and Brian outside signing autographs. I made my way inside and to the elevators, wanting Emmileigh to go ahead and take the test just so I wouldn't be worrying about it.

"Emmi, I'm back!" I said, walking into our room to see Nick sitting on my bed. "Hey, what are you doing in here?"

"Emmileigh went down to the gift shop downstairs to get a soda or something," Nick said as I nodded, sitting the bag down on my bed. "Where'd you go?"

"To the store down the street," I said. "I needed some shampoo and stuff."

"Oh, what kind do you use?" he asked as he grabbed the bag to look inside and I jumped, trying to take it from him. "What's your problem?" he asked, reaching in the bag and pulled out the pregnancy test. "What the fuck is this?"

"Uh, it's not what you think..."

"I thought you said you had that thing and you couldn't get pregnant?!" he yelled as he stood up, holding the test. "Were you lying?"

"No, I wasn't lying, Nick, it would take a miracle for me to get pregnant right now," I said as he held the test up.

"You took that pill before we left Paris..."

"I did."

"You said we didn't use one on the plane, fuck..."

"Nick, it's not mine."

"You bought it."

"But, it's... it's not for me," I said as he stared at me. "I haven't lied to you, Nick. I don't want to be a mother. I don't want to get pregnant. I bought the test, but it's not mine." Nick looked at the test and then back at me. I could see the light bulbs go off in his head as he opened his mouth, wanting to say something. "Don't say a thing."

"Dude, Emmileigh's pregnant?" he asked, dropping the test back on the bed. "Damn next time you buy something like that, put someone else's name on it. I think my balls just went back inside my body."

"Her period is late, that's all, but that doesn't mean anything," I said, grabbing the test to put it back in the bag. "So don't say anything, please," I said as we heard the door open and Emmileigh walked in, holding a soda.

"Why does Nick look like he's seen a ghost?" Emmileigh asked as he walked over and climbed on her bed.

"I bought you something and he found it," I said as Nick reached in the bag and grabbed the test out, tossing it to her. "You can't wait until the tour is over, Emmi. You need to at least find out something now."

[/Karsyn]

[Emmileigh]

I looked between Nick and Karsyn before looking down at the test. "Donnie can't find out." I looked back up and directly at Nick.

"Woah!" He held his hands up. "He won't find out from me."

"Good." I looked up at Karsyn. "I'm scared."

Karsyn walked over and wrapped her arm around my shoulder. "Go do the test. I'll be right out here. You know it's better to know than to leave it until you get home."

I nodded, knowing Karsyn was right, but was still scared non the less. "Ok. Um.." I took a shaky breath and collapsed into Karsyn as she hugged me.

"I'm here. I promise. No matter what."

I nodded against her and squeezed her before letting her go. "Ok.. here goes nothing." I waved the test and looked at both Nick and Karsyn before turning around to walk in the bathroom.

"Want me to leave? Cos I can go..."

I turned around and smiled at Nick. "Stay. I mean.. you know now so... stay." I turned back before walking into the bathroom and shutting the door.

I had to pee on a stick. That I could do, that wasn't hard.

So why did I break down in tears the moment I pulled the thing from the box?

I must of been in the bathroom a good ten minutes and not done a thing other than read the instructions as to what to do.

"You ok, Em?"

I heard Karsyn's voice through the door and jumped. "Uh.. yea." I wiped my eyes. "I'll be out in a minute." I moved over to the toilet and pulled my leggings down before sitting down, test in my hand ready.

As soon as I did the test I shoved it back in the box and washed my hands before walking out the bathroom, box in hand.

"Does it really take that long?" Nick asked, and got a slap from Karsyn, which made me chuckle.

"No.. I just.. was nervous."

"Of course you were. Ignore him."

I sat on my bed and held the box out to Karsyn. "I can't look."

"Is it ready?" Karsyn asked as she took the box. I shook my head.

"It said two minutes or something," I sighed and looked at Karsyn, who sat the box between her and Nick.

"So, like if your pregnant.. you gonna tell Donnie?" Nick picked up the box, but Karsyn pulled it back off him and put it on the bed.

"Of course.. I just.. I'm scared. I don't want to think about that right now. I don't want to think about Donnie hating me," I whispered the last part.

"He won't hate you. He loves kids. He's got some."

Karsyn laughed and looked at Nick. "You say that like he went out and brought them."

I watched them and chuckled as they bickered back and forth for a while before sighing loudly. "Ugh."

Karsyn turned to me. "Want me to check it, or you?"

I nodded at her. "You.. if you want."

Karsyn nodded and grabbed the box. I watched her in fear as she undid the box and slid the test out. I tried to read her face as she read it, but she left no emotion on her face as she looked at it.

"What does it say?"

Karsyn jumped off the bed and climbed onto mine, sitting next to me. I looked at her wide eyed as she hugged me. "Honey, it's positive."

I felt tears fill my eyes the moment she told me that and broke down.

[/Emmileigh]