Virago: She Who Can See The Future

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W A R R E N

Nagising akong nakahiga na sa isang malambot na kama. Ang temperatura ko na parang hindi pa rin bumababa kung kaya masakit pa rin ang ulo.

Bumukas ang pinto at pumasok si Light. “Kumusta ang iyong nararamdaman?”

Pinilit kong bumangon. “Anong balita?”

Kinuha niya ang bimpo na nakapatong sa aking ulo at binasa ito. Binalik niya sa akin ang hawak. “Ilagay mo ulit para mabawasan ang init mo.

Kinuha ko ang inabot niya at nagsalita. “Anong balita, Light? Nasaan na si Lavender?”

Mapait siyang ngumiti sa akin. Huli na nang mapansin ko ang namumula niyang mga mata, malapit ng mamaga. Ang pagsinghot niya ay lalong nakadagdag sa takot ko na baka totoo nga ang naiisip ko.

“Anong nangyari, Light?”

“Patay na siya.”

Tatlong salita na pumatay sa pandama ko. Wala akong marinig.

Tiningnan niya ako na para bang tinatanya ang magiging reaksyon ko. Ang hawak kong bimpo ay bumagsak sa hita ko. Namuo ang luha sa gilid ng aking mga mata, tila may malaking bumara sa aking lalamunan.

“Iwan mo muna ako.”

Humiga ako at nagtalukbong ng kumot. Pumikit ako. I imagined her alive, laughing, playing, and having fun.

She must have already seen that death awaits her. Why didn’t she tell it? Nakagawa sana ng paraan para takasan.

But if death was really her fate, then we should have enjoyed every minute of her life. I should have give her all of my love and attention. Hindi ko sana siya iniwang mag-isa.

“Ngunit may sinabi ang orakulo, ang muling pagkabuhay ay ipagkakaloob sa kaniya sa taong bisyesto, sa taong 2020, sa ganap na ika-29 ng Pebrero.”

I waited for her.

I searched her.

I watched her grow. She was a jolly child, the source of happiness of her new family. She was a cheerful sister who brings smile to her siblings.

I saw her turn from a cute girl into a fine, young lady, and as the years passed by, she changed so as my feelings.

I fell deeper, I was drowned alone.

People say, “There are many fishes in the sea.”

I don’t want anyone, I only want her.

I can’t find another fish because she is the sea or, maybe, the ocean.

Una pa lang ay sa kanya na ako nalunod kaya hindi na ako makahanap. Hindi na ako makakaahon para maghanap.

I love her so much.

I was by her side when she cried a bucket of tears yet she didn’t know. I was suffering, too, when she was mourning from the death of her loved ones.

I stayed with her when she thought she had no one.

“You can have my jacket. I will go get something.”

Someone who was left by her family, it must be depressing for her. Death must be visiting her mind, persuading her as the last solution to her miseries.

I closed and opened the door leading inside the hospital. Still, my eyes not leaving her.

She positioned herself on the railing. Ang dalawang kamay ay nasa magkabilang gilid para hindi mahulog. Fear consumed me when I saw her right hand slowly losing its grip from the metal.