𝗯𝗮𝗯𝘆𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹 | 𝗺𝗮𝗿𝗸 𝗹𝗲𝗲

𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔣𝔦𝔯𝔪𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫

third person:

hana grabbed hold of jaehyun's hand and squeezed it gently before giving a small smile. mark felt a sense of disappointment wash over him as he forced him eyes on the ground rather than watching.

"don't worry about me jaehyun. i want to chill with mark for a bit. you should go ahead, you must be tired." hana got put and lightly pushed him towards his bedroom. after forcing jaehyun go ahead, she sat back down next to mark and turned her body to face him.

"do you wanna talk about it?" hana said quietly as she felt guilty for making him emotional after her section of the surprise video.

"i mean we don't have to if you don't want to. sorry if i made you ups-" hana began rambling thinking she messed up and made mark upset with the words she used.

"t-thank you." mark managed to choke out despite the emotions rising in his heart.

"it was nothing. i just wanted to remind you that i'm here for you." hana said lightly leaning in to see a tear fall onto his cheeks. she realized that mark was crying. for the first time, she witnessed mark break down his strong walls, and showed her his hidden emotions. knowing that she finally had a chance to make up for all the things mark did for her, she sprung into action.

"whatever you're going through, you got this. you can get through it. i know you can because you've gone through so much already. i can't imagine how difficult your life has been so far. but know that i'm here now. i'm here to listen and to be your rock. so don't be afraid to reach out for help. you're doing amazing sweetie. what's worrying you?" hana sweetly spoke as she crawled in his lap and he stared down at her concerned expression. she found herself caressing mark's soft cheeks as the tears continued to stream.

"there's so much things. i mean, i just let it bottle up. and to see someone acknowledge that i'm doing amazing, gives me reassurance. it just reminds me of all the times, i questioned my career, sacrifices, choices. literally everything. i didn't want to worry any of the hyungs. i kept it to myself, and when you girls came into my life. it shocked me, because it was almost as if you could see straight through my strong persona. almost as if you could sense, that i'm tired of life." mark whispered to hana, knowing that he felt slightly embarrassed that hana had to reassure him. hana nodded as she grabbed one of his fidgeting hands and played with it as she continued to listen to him talk.

"it's okay. i mean, it's hard because just to express your struggling takes alot of courage and i'm glad that you are expressing it to me when you could do it to your hyungs of many years. but, know that sometimes, you should let off some steam. they deserve to know how you truly feel about things. they would understand where you're coming from as long as you voice your struggling. it'll take time, but you got this. you're mark fucking lee. what can't you do?" hana spoke as she gave a big thumbs up. mark smiled despite the negative feelings in his mind.

"thank you for entering my life." mark spoke as eyes widened at the fact he actually said that to her. hana smiled at mark's genuine comment knowing that she felt the same. almost as if god knew they needed each other.

"i feel the same mark." hana said as she continued to fidget with his hand knowing that if she looked at mark for too long she would begin blushing nonstop.

"don't forget, if there's anything bothering you, let me know okay?" hana pointed to him as she demanded for a reply. mark nodded quietly in response. hana knew he had a lot on his mind, but didn't have the guts to ask about it. little did hana know, it was thoughts of her that was flooding his mind.

"i hope you know hana that i appreciate everything you've done for me. sometimes i find myself thanking god for bringing such an angel in my life." mark said looking straight at hana that was already staring at him. hana covered her face with her interwined one and attempted to hide behind it.

"a-angel? me? lies." hana questioned as she didn't notice she was smiling. hana thought about finding a comeback in hopes of teasing him.

"well have you seen yourself? you don't even need to show your abs to look hot. must be nice." hana smirked knowing it'll for sure fluster him. mark looked up to the ceiling trying to stop an embarrassed smile rise on his face.

"oh my god!" mark exclaimed as he mimicked hana's actions previously. he covered his face with hand. hana felt so happy to be with someone that made her so joyful. she wrapped her arms around mark's torso as she was still curled in his lap.

"we should go sleep, i think we both have things to do. i'm not too sure." mark said as he yawned and patted hana's thigh to tell her its time to go.

"you're right. i heard we might be filming idol week this week." hana said as she got up and started folding the blanket.

"is it the entirety of nct?" mark questions as he pulled off his hood and ruffled his messy hair.

"i think so, imagine how chaotic that'll be." hana said as she stood holding the blanket in her hand looking up to mark.

"you're right. also next time, wear longer or baggy shorts." mark said as he lightly leaned down and tugged on her spandex trying to make it lower.

"okay okay. it's not like anyone is even looking at me." hana said as she turned around heading to the room.

"well, you never know. so be careful." mark followed hana as he thought of someone that might've been watching her.

"okay, thank you for being concerned for me, mark. let's go sleep." hana spoke as she opened their shared bedroom door as she glanced back to see mark readjusting his specs and lazily nodding.

"cute." hana muttered as she headed straight for the bed, hoping she could sleep as soon as possible. and with that, everyone fell asleep easily feeling content and satisfied with the day. although, one person found themself still in a predicament: to pursue or to let go.

a/n: i hope you enjoy the plot so far! don't forget to stay safe everyone :)