Blown to Forever (Montereal Series #1) COMPLETED

Chapter 39

Ayaw kona. Nakakapagod na. Maybe like what happens to Rianna and Kendrick, will happen to us too.

  
Tama si Rianna dati. Now i understand why did she talk to me that time. Masaya na si Kendrick ngayon at ayaw konang guluhin pa siya. Masakit mag let go, pero pag alam mo nang hindi na ikaw, wala ka nang ibang choice eh. Kahit ayaw mo, pipilitin mo.

 
"Ba't ang aga mo ata ngayon hija?" Si mama. Palabas siya ng bahay at mukhang may pupuntahan dahil narin nakaayos ito.

 
Malungkot akong ngumiti. "Nakakapagod po kasi mama" walang gana kong sabi.

 
She intently look at me bago sinenyasan si manong Henry na mamaya na sila umalis.

 
"Halika dito sa loob. Alam kong may problema ka" akay niya sa akin papasok.

 
Hindi ako nagsalita at sumunod nalang.

 
"What happened?" Tanong niya ng makaupo na kami.

 
Inangat ko ang ulo ko at tiningnan si mommy. "Did i do the wrong decission back then mom?" Kusang tumulo ang mga luha ko.

 
Did i really do the wrong decission back then? Mali ba na mas pinili ko ang pamilya ko? Mali ba na nag giveway ako para makamit niya ang pangarap niya? Is it wrong?

 
Umiling si mommy "You didn't you made the right choice" mom cup my face and wipe my unending tears "Look at us, look at our businesses, look at him. You did the right decission" alo niya sa akin.

 
"But what about me mom? All those years i' m suffering"

 
Suffering from the pain, from the regret and from the memories. Why does right, felts so wrong?

  
"You don't need to heal by yourself. He still love you hija. Sigurado ako diyan"

  
Umiling ako. No. He didn't loved me anymore now  "Hindi na mom. He already feel for someone and it really hurts mom" i sob.

 
"Did you both talk?"

 
Umiling ako.

 
"You both need it"

 
Tumango ako. Yeah! This time i'll talk to him and after this i'm done. Babalik ako ng Australia at hindi na kailan man tatapak pa dito.

 
Hinanap ko ang dati ko cellphone at piniling e-charge iyon. Akala ko hindi na gagana, pero gumagana parin. Thousands of messages flooded ng binuksan ko iyon. I see Yhuan, Brayle, Xan, Cayfer and Vien messeges na ni sent pa four years ago. Then on top of the list is Kendrick's name i got 50,000 messages from him, pinindot ko iyon and the latest message was sent last year. Tumulo ang luha ko habang binabasa iyon.

 

From: Kendrick.

It's been three years. I really miss you, kailan ka uuwi? Hinihintay kita. I love you❤

  

I sob. I type with my tears flowing.

 

 

To: Kendrick

I wanna talk to you. Meet me tommorow 3:pm in the same spot we last dated.

 

Hindi ko alam kong same pa rin ang number niya but i sent it. Pupunta ako bukas, kung darating siya it means we need to talk, kung hindi maybe aalis akong walang closure at luhaan.