Kabanata 38
Door
I could go back to every laugh,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore,
And I know all the steps up to your door,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore.
As I was pondering the lyrics of the song that's playing on repeat, I wonder if it would change if I do something. I wonder if I ask Psalm about Ephraim's whereabouts, would he tell me?
Talk to the wind, talk to the sky,
Talk to the man with the reasons why,
And let me know what you find.
I'll leave my window open,
'Cause I'm too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I'm right here hopin',
That you'll come in with the rain.
His door was slammed shut right in front of my face. He told me to get lost and not see him again. But I can't seem to let him go that's why the door in my heart was still open.
I could stand up and sing you a song,
But I don't wanna have to go that far.
And I, I've got you down,
I know you by heart,
And you don't even know where I start.
Talk to yourself, talk to the tears,
Talk to the man who put you here,
And don't wait for the sky to clear.
Another month passed and today, I found out that he was leaving the country. Psalm talked to me on the phone and told me that information. Hindi ko matanto kung ano ang dapat maramdaman.
My subconscious was telling me to run after him. To chase him and tell him not to go. But since I couldn't move properly without the help of other people, I stayed still.
Baka senyales na rin ito na hindi ko na dapat siyang pigilan. Baka senyales na ito na parehong resulta lang ang matatanggap ko.
I'll leave my window open,
'Coz I'm too tired at night to call your name.
Oh, just know I'm right here hopin',
That you'll come in with the rain.
I've watched you so long,
Screamed your name,
I don't know what else I can say.
Ilang ulit ko ring naimagine ang mga salitang sasabihin ko at ang mga ibabato niya.
"Is that your choice?" I asked.
"Yes," he answered with a perpetual scowl on his face.
"What about me? My life completely changed after I met you. Did it not change for you? You said you were able to dream and feel genuine happiness again because of me. What did you dream and why are you happy? Why are you leaving like this, then?"
I didn't mind those people looking at us, curious about what's going on. I didn't mind the noise while we were standing in the middle of the departure building.
"Seraiah," he said in his hoarse but authoritive voice. "Snap out of it. Snap out of it and face the reality. I don't want to talk about these things with you anymore."
"How about me? How about those times we spent? I want to know your answer—"
"Don't wait for my answer."
And I watched him turn his back against me to walk away. I will just stand there, or maybe on my wheelchair, whispering words I want to tell him.
Siguradong ganoon lang ang mangyayari. Wala nang mababago.
But I'll leave my window open,
'Coz I'm too tired at night for all these games.
Just know I'm right here hopin',
That you'll come in with the rain.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Great Escape
Teen FictionCOMPLETED. Seraiah was diagnosed with Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis and going in and out of the hospital became part of her daily routine. Her days became dull and her condition gets worse each passing day. Until she met Ephraim, the stubborn son o...
