Lullabies in December (Behind The Month #2)

27

27, Like the soul

"I got... click-baited." I explained in my low voice as I tried showing him what's currently on my phone.

It's still on pause and his eyes drifted to it. He sighed heavily, followed by his eyes, now slowly crawling up to my flushed face. I showed it to him because I simply didn't want him to think that I was watching a pornographic thing at this moment.

Nakakahiya talaga. Hindi ko maiwasang umiwas ng tingin sa kanya. Binalik ko ang phone ko sa tabi ko, ngayon ay pinatay na para hindi na aksidenteng ma-play ang naroon.

"I think I should go," aniya at tumikhim pa pagkatayo.

"Huh? Uh... okay."

I watched him as he rolled his long sleeves up until his elbows. I couldn't deny the awkwardness in the air so I just let him leave. But before that, he even tried to fix the empty containers on the table which startled me so I stood up and stopped him by doing it myself.

"Safe, ako na..."

"Hayaan mo na, Anna." sabay pagpatong-patong niya sa mga empty containers.

I tried to stop him more by telling him he shouldn't bother anymore but he still continued though, and it caused me to do it in a rush so he'll no longer have anything to fix. My eyes widened again when our hands touched as I tried getting one container.

I chose to laugh it out and he only sighed, a small smile was on his face.

"Ingat..." I waved a bit as I stood by the open gate, watching him while he's wearing the helmet.

I clasped my hands together above my legs. Sumakay na siya sa kanyang motor at saglit na binuksan ang salamin ng helmet.

"Text me... call me, alright?" aniya sa mababang boses.

Tumango ako, nag-iinit ang mukha. "I won't... make you worried again."

His lips parted for a deep sigh so I giggled.

"Take care..." he said breathily, smiling.

"Alright," I said.

I was already resting on my bed when I recalled what happened. My heart's taking me somewhere at the thought that Safe has shared to me... a part of his life. Though I know he has more things to say... what he said to me were all enough to make me feel responsible because I know I should never let the words fly to other people.

My head rested on my bed's backrest with my hands hugging my knees loosely. I stared at the ceiling. Dumidilim na kaya bukas na ang mga ilaw. Sumuot sa isip ko ang katotohanang nakuha ng makaalis ni Safe pero hindi niya ako natanong tungkol sa mga magulang ko.

He saw my mom's picture in the living area and I told him honestly that she is my mother. He knows that I am living alone in this house and yet... he never asked me why. He didn't ask me where my parents are... though he can assume some reasons, I came to think that one would be so curious about it so of course, I'll get asked. But then... maybe he didn't want to ask me about personal matters or something.

Baka pa inisip niyang hindi ako kumportableng pag-usapan iyon. Maybe... he's waiting for me to open that topic myself, only if he's really curious about it. I can't be sure but if he considers the way I'd feel, then I'm not gonna stop myself from being happy about it.

He's just so considerate. My heart seems melting because of it.

Holding my phone, I composed a message for him. He's at home already and he texted me around five something.

To: That Man

What are you doing?

He took awhile before he replied to me.