Lullabies in December (Behind The Month #2)

31

31, I just hate

"Do you think she'll like these, Safeguard?" 

I asked that to my cute puppy as he wagged his tail in front of me. I squatted on the garden's ground covered with bermuda grass and watched him as he played around.

Tomorrow is finally Safe's mother's birthday. I was invited and I didn't changed my mind about attending on their simple celebration, as to what Safe has told me. I sighed and lazily stood up, holding the three long floral dresses that I bought online and they just got delivered to me today actually. They were folded and I opened the package awhile back to check for any possible defects or damages but there was none so... it's enough for me to feel okay, I guess, about... tomorrow's event. Kinakabahan kasi talaga ako para roon. Ni hindi pa nga ako sigurado sa mga nabili kong ito bilang regalo pero kasi... mukha namang mahilig sa dress ang mama niya kaya baka pwede na rin ang mga ito.

I'll buy her a minimalist cake tomorrow, too.

"Sorry, Safeguard. You need to go back inside..." I said silently while holding him this time with my vacant hand to put him back in his cage.

Pumasok ako sa bahay pagkatapos magdilig ng mga halaman. Kanina pa ako nakauwi galing school. Hindi pumasok ang huling prof kaya mabuti na rin para mabakante naman ako sa mga gawain. I closed my bedroom door as I went inside.

I'll put the dresses in a paper bag and write a short greeting for Safe's mom.

Happy birthday po, tita. :)

I stared at it for a second. This is okay, right? I swallowed a bit as I attached the small paper on the white paper bag after properly fixing the clothes inside. Yeah, I've got no choice anyway of what I should call her. "Ma'am" doesn't sound right so...

"Hay..." mahina kong tugon nang kausap na si Safe, kinagabihan at nakahiga na ako sa kama ko.

"I'm just making sure. I don't want you to feel pressured..." he stated calmly.

"What... pressured? I don't feel pressured." I told him gently.

Pangatlong tanong niya na nga yata ito, kung sigurado ako sa pagpunta bukas dahil okay lang naman daw kung hindi muna ako pupunta.

"You didn't tell your mom I'm coming?"

"She didn't ask," he replied nonchalantly.

I closed my eyes. "Tell her. Baka isipin niya... hindi ako pupunta."

"Okay, love. I'm sorry. I should've told her, yes..."

I laughed slightly. "Okay..."

"Sasabihin ko na sa kanya mamaya. Anong ginagawa mo?"

"Wala... nakahiga lang. Bumabawi pa ako sa tulog ko, e. You? Review pa rin?"

He sighed heavily. "Research naman 'tsaka inaayos ko ang ibang forms ko for internship."

"Right..." I sighed too, realizing that. He'll be very busy with that. His time for school would be lessened since he'll be staying in a mental institution. "Busy ka na niyan lalo..."

I thought of my own situation and I didn't really want to make him feel bad so I added more words to say.

"Ako rin naman... for sure. Patapos na ang klase, e. Dadami pa ang gagawin ko. So it's okay, if busy ka dahil ganoon din ako."

We talked some more but we have called it a night already and even said goodnight to each other and yet... the topic about Valentine's didn't come. It wasn't opened. I mean, we're a couple. Aren't we supposed to talk about it para malaman ang plano namin tungkol doon? Kahit simple lang naman ang gawin namin kung hindi niya tipong mamasyal o ano. I'm fine with that but... he didn't mention anything about it.