Kill For The Gangster King's Throne (2016)

Chapter 32 - Love Me Wild

TRIGGER WARNING: THIS CHAPTER HAS SEXUAL CONTENT (read at your own risk)

Chapter 32 - Love Me Wild

FRES EVANGELIQUE

Nitong nakakaraang mga araw na kasama si Geo, I feel like my emotional and mental being is all drained. He's fun to be with... since he's talented, intelligent and charming, kahit pa he always insisted that he's just average. Marami kaming napag-uusapan lalo na at halos magkapareho kami ng hobbies at interests. I have found a food, music, and hobby buddy in him.

But... being with him drains me so much. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba ito sa halos wala na akong time para mapag-isa dahil lagi siyang nakadikit sa'kin o dahil sa may mga panahon na mabilis siyang malungkot o mairita kapag may hindi siya nagustuhan na ginawa o sinabi ko. Fortunately, hindi na naulit ang pananakit niya sa'kin. I'm only okay with letting it go for once, pero kung uulitin niya, I'm not letting it pass again like that.

"Fres, let's watch something nice today!" Bungad ni Geo pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko sa banyo. I mentally sighed. This is gonna be a long day... once again.

"Medyo masakit ulo ko, Geo. I don't think watching a movie would make me feel better." pag-amin ko habang naglalakad papunta sa sofa upang umupo. Geo was following behind me.

Nang umupo na ako, Geo sat beside me and placed his hand on my forehead. "Wala ka namang sakit. How are you feeling?"

Kung may lakas lang ako makipagtalo, baka pinilosopo ko na 'to by stating "I literally just told you", my badness, Geo! But like what I have been doing these days, nagpaka-lenient na lang ako.

"My head just hurts. Don't worry about it." Ayoko na pag-alalahin pa siya at baka kung ano pa ang maisipan niyang gawin. I don't have the energy for it.

Miss ko na rin ang iba...

Napabuntong hininga ako. Ang tahimik na ng mansion. Maybe I should ask Daddy na ibalik sila rito? It's getting boring nowadays... and at least, I wouldn't feel uncomfortable knowing na si Geo lang ang nag-iisa kong kasama rito. Though, yes, nasa maid's quarters lang naman sila which is a few steps away from the mansion kaso iba pa rin kapag nandito sila.

Hindi ko alam kung anong meron kay Geo, but I just can't seem to be that comfortable around him. Siguro kasi he's too good to be true? He's almost perfect, after all, kung hindi lang siya tinotopak. Tsk.

Weird ba? Siguro other people would find me weird, getting uncomfortable with a guy just because he's almost perfect. Kung ibang babae siguro, baka sinunggaban na agad siya.

I'm not saying I'm better than them, I just prefer guys that has many flaws... For me, it makes them so real and attainable. And of course, it makes it easier to accept and forgive them kapag nagkamali dahil nga hindi mo naman sila ineexpect na maging perpekto.

I don't know if I'm making any sense. Dulot siguro 'to ng sakit ng ulo ko. Ugh, my badness!

"Fres, may importante po akong sasabihin." Napatingin naman ako kay Geo na seryosong nakatingin sa'kin. Mukhang kanina pa niya ako pinagmamasdan. He does that frequently, nasanay na lang ako. Nagandahan siguro sa'kin. Not being narcissistic, just being real. Alam ko naman sa sarili ko na maganda ako.

"Ano 'yun?" Nagtatakang tanong ko. I know hindi pa ako ganoon ka-komportable sa kanya pero we're close enough to just tell anything we want. Ayoko rin ng mga ganitong simula ng usapan. Hindi ako anxious na tao pero nakakakaba kaya kapag ganyan ang unang sasabihin sa'yo! Di mo maiiwasan mag-overthink.

He leaned in and kissed me passionately. Sa gulat ko ay hindi ako kaagad nakagalaw. Akala ko ba may sasabihin siya, bakit ako hinalikan?!

I was about to push him away when he held my hands para hindi ko ito magawa. He bit my bottom lip, requesting for entrance. I tried to resist, pero nawala ako sa sarili nang sipsipin niya ang mga labi ko. I ended up letting him in and kissing him back. My body was warming up and he makes me feel good. Is this what they call love? Or is it just lust?