Mute Mate

Chapter 30

~Y/N POV~

Thankfully it's the weekend so I don't have any reason to see Taehyung after the way he spoke to me. How can I forgive him so easily after what he said?

There was no need for it in my opinion and I was just trying to make him realise the reality of the situation. He's just so stubborn that he even let his ego of being the almighty alpha in the way of how he spoke to me in total denial to the fact that whether he liked it or not someone in this pack is going to die.

Jisoo came around to my house early this morning. She was mad at her brother for speaking to me like that and she actually learned about what happened from Taehyung himself because I would refuse to see him. Last night he came to my window but I ignored it. Thankfully he didn't jump up to the window but just instead every now and then throw small rocks at my window for attention but I don't have to see him to know that it was him because I know it was him. Eventually he went away but he's been texting me all day to which I ignore also, leaving him on read. I just cant deal with him right now.

Together Jisoo and I were on my bed just casually watching movies, comedy movies just to try and cheer me up. No romance except for the odd movie that would have a romance in it but it's not so bad. I just needed a laugh and there were some points in movies that I did find funny but some not as much as I usually would.

Taehyungs words were still fresh in my mind and it hurts deep.

If he really thought I was useless because I'm a mute then why doesn't he reject me as his mate?

That doesn't make sense to me. It wouldn't hurt me as much as it would hurt him but I guess that's why he hasn't rejected me because it would hurt him more. Maybe this whole excuse for becoming alpha early and such is just a plot to become alpha and is using me to help that happen?

But at the same time but could just be me over thinking it and could be totally untrue.

However because I become suddenly sad with my thoughts and with Jisoo being able to read me like a book she cuddles me close to her, her arms around me body as he sit up against the head board of my bed.

"You know Namjoon would of came to check on you but you know with Taehyung being how he is right now he thought it wouldn't be a good idea." Jisoo

She stroke my hair on the back of my head with a soft hum afterwards. I already know Namjoon wanted to come over to check on me since he texted me earlier but I didn't know it was because of Taehyung. I wanted to ask why Taehyung would be a big problem to why Namjoon couldn't come over but she ended up telling me anyway.

"Before you ask why Taehyung would be a problem I'll tell you why anyway. It's because you can say he's not very.....stable right now." Jisoo

I frowned at what she said just to move away from her slightly to give her a questionable look. He may have upset me but I don't want to be acting all crazy if that's what he's doing. He might end up hurting himself or others if he's not careful.

Jisoo sighed heavily to look down at her lap, removing her arms from around my shoulders.

"Y/n don't worry about it okay? He's fine." Jisoo

I just gave her a stern look and signed to her to tell me what's wrong with him. Again she gave me a defeated look and turned away to look to the corner of my bedroom.

"He's em.he's okay but....okay he's a mess. I can't lie to you Y/n when you look at me like that. Taehyung is all over the place one minute and wont sit fucking still and then the next he's in the corner like a crying puppy. There I said it." Jisoo

She throws her hands in the air and drops them to her lap with a heavy sigh and her hands slapping off her lap. Now I was concerned about him even more than before.

"Look Y/n trust me he'll be fine. He knows it's his own fault for saying the things he did but you just look after yourself right now okay? Taehyung is absolutely fine." Jisoo

The sincerity in her eyes told me I should believe her so I nodded and we both ended up turning our attention back to the movie that was playing and that we missed about ten minutes of what was going on.

Not long after Jisoo and I continued to watch the movie the same chipping sounds were coming from the window, tapping off the glass. It was constant one after the other. It didn't take a fool to realise who that could be. Jisoo groans and slid off the bed to begin to walk over to the window but I rushed after her, jumping off the bed and grabbed her arm shaking my head repeatedly.

"What? I'm just going to tell him to go home." Jisoo

I shook my head again and signed to her to let me do it. After what I found out about how Taehyung really is I decided I should hear him out.

"Okay fine. I'll be right over here." Jisoo

She pointed to where she once sat on the bed and takes a seat while I taking a deep breath and head to the window just to peak down to see Taehyung standing at the bottom in mid swing to throw another rock but stops when he sees me. His eyes widening and a small smile appeared on his lips but one that didn't reach his eyes.

"Y/n! Please I'm so sorry!" Taehyung

He drops his rock and I opened the window giving him a sadden look lightly shaking my head at him. Just trying to express how hurt I am that he used my insecurities against me.

"I know, I know I'm sorry. I shouldn't of spoke to you like that. I swear I didn't mean what I said. It just came out without thinking!" Taehyung

I started to sign at him aggressively feeling hurt and angry all at the same time. He stood there looking up at me watching my hands move quickly as if I was yelling at him and boy do I wish I could right now. I signed to him to put a point across that if he said something without thinking it then at some point he must really think about it in his thoughts. That I wouldn't be a good luna to the pack because of my disability and try to point out how he would feel if I said something just as hurtful.

"Nothing will excuse what I said Y/n. Nothing but I swear I only said that in anger. All this.....this shit is just messing with me and I didn't mean to hurt you. Please....I just.....I'm lost without you Y/n." Taehyung

The way he was looking at me right now, staring up at me with such heavy eyes with bags under them and his hair was messy also. Jisoo was right he didn't look like he was doing so well.

I'm lost without him too and one day I will forgive him for what he said but right now it's fresh in my mind and judging by the look in his eyes he knows what I was thinking.

I thought to myself but knowing full well that he will understand.

"I'm sorry Taehyung but we can't right now. Give me time."

I thought loud and clear in my own mind and when his eyes widen in surprise and became teary I knew that he had understood and I had to watch him nod without saying more and turn to walk away and out my garden. I couldn't take my eyes off him but once he left and was gone from sight, I closed the window but turning around I already found Jisoo standing up from the bed with her arms spread wide open for me.

The second my body collided into hers, all my tears just fell from my eyes uncontrollably once more. I'll get over it for sure but right now I needed time away from him to heal over the wound that his words have given me.

Why did I have to be born a mute?