XXIX. Let me explain

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Will barely slept that night. He couldnt stop thinking about how El was probably feeling since, he too had felt all of that confusion. Unfortunately for him, it was Saturday and it snowed last night, meaning he had no escaping this conversation this time. Will had put it off for too long, and now it was time.

He pulled himself out of his bed and put on his "M" necklace from Mike and headed out to the kitchen for breakfast. It was cold in the house and the tiles under his feet were freezing. The morning sun came blaring in through the front windows of the house. The snow on the ground reflected the sun, making it brighter than the average day in Will's new neighborhood.

"Good morning mom" He said to Joyce who was already awake, preparing some scrambled eggs and bacon for breakfast.

"Morning sweetheart, are you feeling okay? You're a little pale." She replied, placing the back of her hand on Will's forehead to check his temperature.

"Yeah, Im fine I guess." Will replied.

He did infact, feel a bit strange this morning but he simply brushed it off since he figured him not being able to finish his dinner had something to do with it. Maybe he was actually getting a cold of some sort, but either way, not a huge deal, right?

"Honey you're practically burning!" Joyce said, pausing her cooking process, "Here, come lay down."

Will followed his mom over to the couch and laid down. Joyce pulled a blanket down from the back of the couch and laid it over her "sick" son. 

Will had just contracted a small cold from the sudden change in weather and going back to school, but ever since he went to the upside down, his mom had always gotten extremely worried about every sneeze or cough to ever come out of Will. Will knew he was fine, but since he had newly developed powers now, his sneezes and coughs could probably cause a power outage..... of their whole town. 

"I'm really okay mom I promise." Will began as his mother placed a warm washcloth across his head.

"I know that sweetheart but you need to get some rest, you're probably getting a cold." She replied.

As Will laid on the couch "getting rest", Hopper came inside from shoveling the driveway and side walks and El woke up from her long nights rest. Jonathan had already left for the day, despite the bad weather. The whole family ate their breakfast together in the living room and watched the morning game shows that played on the TV. 

Unlike Will, Hopper was a little concerned about Will. He knew that Will had a lot going through his mind and he also knew that Will was planning on talking with Eleven about Mike at some point today. Hopper knew that Will was infact, making himself sick. He wanted to have a talk with Will about how he should be afraid to talk about things like his relationship. Will was always a very quiet kid, especially when it came to his feelings. Will had guards up, in order to protect himself from being hurt. 

"How are you feeling Will?" Hop said.

"Im fine" He said, sounding uninterested, getting up and walking his plate to the kitchen, then retaking his seat at the couch.

After they were finished with breakfast, El went back into her room to complete her assignments for the weekend and some extra work that she had given herself to lengthen her knowledgeablility. Eleven just sat in her room for the night, she was obviously walking on eggshells around Will, since she felt bad for the way she was acting yesterday at dinner. She didn't know any better when it comes to spreading her thoughts, she didn't really ever think twice about what she says. 

Will eventually got himself up from the couch and went back in his room and sat at his desk to read and write some letters to Mike. His train of thought was interrupted by a very gentle knock on his door.

"Can we talk" El said, standing in the doorway.

"Y-Yeah, sure" Will said, walking over to her and shutting the door.

"Im sorry about last night at dinner, I didn't know." El began 

"Its okay, Im sorry too. I should've told you sooner" Will said

"I understand why you were afraid to, but I want you to know that I am not upset." She said, "I am happy for you and Mike."

"Thank you El,"

"Can i ask you something though?" She said, before leaving the room.

"Yeah of course, anything."

"When did you know, that you loved him" She said to him

"I don't know, I think I always knew I was just afraid to actually explore the feelings." He began to say

"I don't know If he ever loved me, I see the way he looks at you. Hes never looked at me that way. But that's okay, I don't think i ever loved him either." El said to Will.

Will gave El a big hug as she left the room to return to her studying. At least that conversation was over for the most part. Talking with El, however, opened Will's eyes to all the things of his past that he had missed so much. He had been holding so much in lately that he felt like he hadnt had a second to breathe and let it all out. Maybe that's the reason why  he had developed powers and why sometimes they flare up and cause chaos. Will had all these emotions and feelings that he had been to afraid to actually show the world that he had completely boxed himself off from the rest of the world, to a point of being afraid to talk to his own sister about his relationship. 

Will had felt as though his whole family had been treating him like a sheet of paper since his return from the upside down, but he himself knew that he was fine and that he would be okay. He laid on his bed and began to quietly sob and finally let his emotions run free. Before he knew it, a piercing ring in his head began and he couldn't stop it. He was completely unaware of what he was doing to his surroundings, but Hopper heard it from the next room over. He came bursting through the door as the books on Will's neat bookshelf came flying off, landing on the floor. Hopper immediately ran over to Will and grabbed him into a hug.

"Its okay kid, its okay" He said, as Will pretty much melted into his arms.

Will had finally let himself go and stopped holding his breath. He finally let himself go and stopped holding in all the pain and hurt and overwhelming fear he had kept bottled in for so long and he finally felt free.











does this chapter make sense at all? teehee idk anymore! HEY BIG NEWS! i shared the news of my SECOND BOOK IN THIS SERIES!!! i cant wait to start writing it! Thank you all for the love, i love you !<3

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