Angel's Diary

Chapter 20: February 10, 2015

"I think I gave myself hemorrhoid," I said while bending over on my knees and panting. Logan was currently on the floor panting like crazy. "You know what, we should take a break," he said sitting up and wiping his sweat. "Should've said that before we did the last two runs, to be honest" I told him, causing him to chuckle. I collapsed on the floor and leaned on the wall. I took a big gulp of my water then grabbed my towel. I wiped the sweat on my forehead and around my neck.

I raised the hem of my t-shirt and tied it into a knot. I also dabbed the towel on my exposed stomach and back. I felt Logan's gaze on me and suppressed a smirk. "Enjoying the view?" I asked him without looking at him and continued to wipe my sweat. "Shut up" he muttered, making me giggle. I looked up and saw him leaning on the wall on the other side of the room. He had his eyes closed and looked exhausted.

"Can I ask you a question?" I asked, still staring at him. his eyes opened "Sure?" he said, looking confused. "Why are you like that?" he raised his eyebrows "Like what?" I sighed and laughed a little. "Like.. that! you're always moving. like you don't ever stop. you only do when you have to. You always seem to care about the people around you but you never pay attention to yourself. I don't get it" I told him. He stared at me and smiled a little.

"What made you think that?" he asked. I shrugged in response. "I just started to realize how carefree you are. you just seem so...free" I said looking down. I sighed. "It's just when I look at you and the others, I can't help but feel envious. you just seem so happy all the time. I know you're probably going through your problems and challenges. But you know, I just feel cursed." I said, fiddling with my fingers. I felt him sit beside me. I faced him and he pulled me in his arms. He wrapped his arms around me and I snuggled into his chest.

"If you're thinking that you're alone, or weak, you are most definitely not. Angel, babe, we've been through this. After everything that has happened to you, you're still here. you've been through a lot, and I am so proud of you for how you've dealt with all of the troubles that have been thrown at you with so much grace. You are stronger and braver than you think you are. Love, you've got to learn to forget about the past. I know it's not easy for you, but please at least try. because you have no idea how much it pains me knowing you're still hurting about what that Jackass did to you. I can't even imagine what you had to put through. Sometimes I even just wish that it never happened to you just to take all of that pain away" he said caressing my arms. I pulled away and looked at him with a small smile. I felt tears roll down my cheeks.

"I wish it never happened too. but you know without it, we wouldn't have moved here and we never would have met. so I'm kinda grateful that it happened" I said wiping my tears. He gave me a sad smile then tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear. "Just promise me that you'll make it through this. Our friends are here for you, your parents are here for you. I'm here." he said rubbing his thumb over my cheek. I pressed my lips on him and I felt him kiss back "I love you" I said into the kiss. I felt him smile "I love you too" he mumbled.

He deepened the kiss and I let him. He pulled me closer as things got heated. I ran my fingers through his hair. Suddenly the door opened causing us to pull away quickly. We looked up, surprised to see our friends trying not to laugh. "Sorry, uhm we thought we would ask you if you guys want to grab a bite after your rehearsal but I think you guys are.. busy" Dave said smirking at us. I covered my face with my hand. I can't believe this is happening

"Yeah, we'll go," Logan told them. they nodded then started to awkwardly walkout. "We'll be at the parking lot when you're finished!" Chris called out. Once the door closed, we looked at each other and laughed out loud. "Wow," I exhaled, still laughing. "Did we just get caught by our friends?" he asked, chuckling. I nodded "And to think it was our first time making out," I said under my breath.