written on 9/25/20
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there's haunting moments where i swear i see your soul
i always wanted to believe in the idea of soulmates
but i don't believe they could truly exist
how could i believe in such an ideal?
i desperately want to
because everyone around me seems to have found theirs
they always tell me
"be patient, you just haven't found yours yet."
but i don't believe them
i fear I've already found them
but they already made their choice
that means they can't possibly be my other half,
how could someone meant to be my only counterpart
find a life with someone else?
i try not to torture myself by believing in fantasy
even though that's how i continue to breathe
day by day
when sunlight becomes painful
i disappear into my mind
with you
in these altered moments together there's no obstacles
we lose the morals we live by
because in the place we pretend is home
we've become the only things we live by
why set boundaries we'll be tempted to break?
i want to escape my mind with you
but i know the moment i do
we are no longer two halves of one whole
we will go back to the morals we live by
and introduce ourselves as strangers, again.
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if you chose to read, thank you. it's something different i wanted to do and a new start if you will. goodnight my loves
YOU ARE READING
folie
Poetryjournal-like entries taken from my journal filled with poems and tales that might not make much sense to you. read if you don't mind it, though.