you're all i want || jinkook ✔️

//12 - "I'm ready"//

Jin and Chan are laying in bed, cuddling while they watch a movie. Chan seems to really be enjoying the film and Jin feels like he would too, if he was paying attention to it at all.

     Ever since his shower with Jungkook—about two weeks ago—he has been in the apartment less and less. Jin doesn't know if it's because of something he did or if maybe Jungkook regretted taking his virginity. Not necessarily for him, but maybe because he figured that fucking Jin was a waste and a mistake.

At first, Jin wasn't sure if he should be upset or relieved that Jungkook isn't pestering him like he used to. He still doesn't have his answer however, although he does know that he feels something.

     Something strange that's been happening lately is that after his first time, he's been having the urge to have sex again. He cringes when he remembers the pain he had to endure during prep and all, but the pleasure that came afterwards, it was something else. He's obviously never felt that before and now that's he has, he craves for it.

Chan laughs at a cute little scene and he looks down at Jin to see his reaction, but the smile on his face slowly fades as he notices that Jin's expression is blank, his eyes focused on the tv yet he isn't taking anything in. He's too distracted.

"Hey Jinnie, you alright? You've been spacing out a lot lately."

Jin only hums and he bites his lip, contemplating on whether he should go for what he's thinking on doing or not. He realizes then, what the hell.

     Catching him by surprise, Jin sits up and throws his leg over Chan's left thigh, straddling and situating himself on his lap. Chan doesn't know how to react nor where to put his hands and although Jin's nerves are going crazy, he decides to be confident for once and he grabs Chan's hands and puts them on his ass, further surprising his friend.

     "Jin?"

     He recalls a few scenes from that one explicit movie he saw with Jungkook and he scoots up higher on his lap, feeling his crotch pressed against his butt. He slides his hands slowly up Chan's chest, his eyes following his movements until they reach Chan's brown eyes, blown with hints of arousal. He wraps his arms around his shoulders, his hands playing with the hair at the nape of his neck.

     "Yea?"

     Chan swallows hard. "What are you doing?"

     He thought he could handle Jin when the time was right, in his dreams, everything went smoothly. But now that he's actually here, experiencing this moment, he realizes that he's not as suave as he thought he was. Jin is making him super nervous right now.

     "Is this not ok? I can get off if you want me to," Jin says, a little worried that he's making him uncomfortable by his blunt actions. But Chan shakes his head no immediately and Jin feels his grip on his ass grow slightly tighter.

     "N-no, this is definitely ok. It's just that I didn't know if you were ready or not."

He has been for a while now, even ask Jungkook.

     Calming his nerves, he gazes up at him innocently, however his actions contradict the front he's putting up as he subtly ruts against Chan.

     "I'm ready," he whispers and with his heart pounding in his chest, he leans forward and gingerly places his lips on Chan's, testing the waters. When he decides that that's not enough, he kisses him deeper and Chan lets out a soft groan. Jin's stomach flutters in excitement because of the reaction he gets out of Chan and he presses his upper body closer to his.

They breathe heavily through their nose as their mouths become familiar with each other, Chan's strong hands keep groping Jin's thighs and ass and they migrate up to his petite waist, his fingertips pressing into his skin.

"Jinnie," Chan groans as they pull away, yet he can't get enough of him. He leaves a trail of kisses all over his neck, Jin's head thrown back as he takes it all in. He threads his fingers through Chan's soft hair before suddenly grabbing a handful and gently tugging on the locks.

It's starting to get hot real quick.

     Jungkook arrives home after hanging out with Hongjoong all day, the silence calming him as he believes the apartment is empty.

     When they showered together, Jungkook really enjoyed it—a little too much, in his opinion. It was unlike him to do the cute little things normal people do like cuddling and such. It felt nice at first, but then it made him uncomfortable and honestly, a little scared.

     After living the commitment-free lifestyle for a couple years now, it was weird doing something out of the ordinary. He doesn't want that and he knows that deep down, a small part of him does and that's what irks him. He's protected himself this far and he doesn't want to lose now. That's why he's been avoiding Jin as he's the only one who has made him feel this way, not since middle school.

     He heads to the kitchen and grabs a small bottle of water, taking a drink as he walks back out and towards the staircase. He can't wait to sleep in tomorrow as they've finally reached the weekend and for once, he's planning on staying at home. However, he's camping in his room and only sneaking out when he's sure Jin isn't out and about.

     As he walks up the stairs, he hears noises coming from Jin's room. At first, he couldn't really figure out what it was, but a certain sound gives it away. The sound is distinguishable and one that he knows all too well.

     Jin wouldn't bring home some stranger. There's only one person who he's more likely to invite.

     Figuring out who Jin's visitor is, it makes him upset. He wants to barge in and kick the bastard out of their dorm, but he refrains himself as that wouldn't help his situation one bit. It'd just make things worse.

     He hears Jin's soft moans, remembering how he looked underneath him, his facial expressions as he pleasured him. But another man is satisfying Jin instead of him and the thought alone makes him want to leave the apartment real quick.

     Another moan from Jin, louder than the first, is what causes Jungkook to leave immediately and go to Yugyeom's this time.

     At least Jin is becoming confident with his sexuality.

     But he's upset that it's not with him.