Through the Awakening (Harry Styles) [Bk. 2]

Sometimes it all gets too much...

Warning: This is not an update! If you have chosen to read this for a moment of happy times, i think you might be disapointed. This is going to consist of my thoughts and feeling so there will be no editing at all, i'm just going to type as i go.

This is hard fro me to upload and i'm sorry if it may not bring you any joy but please do feel free to come back later when i do update an actual chapter. Love you.

 Hey my loves, to be honest i do not know why I am writing this or why i am chosing to upload this but i just feel like you all need to know. I dont know... i'm guess im just having one of those days where everything feels so overwhelming and you feel like you have so many things to do in so little time...

Ummm... i took a break earlier today from my college work so i could take a break so my brain could  relax for a bit. I decided to go here in Wattpad to get a bit ahead on a couple of my chapter but then i stublemd upon a few of my inbox messages and....  they weren't very nice. 

Look guys, i understand that not everybody likes fanfiction or that at my age i shouldn't even be writing them at all but i like doing it so why are you even on my profile if you don't even like what i am doing? That doesn't make any sense to me at all. Please understand that i am only doing this because i enjoy writing no matter who i chose to use as my cast. Yes, i use One Direction in my stories but so what? I just use them so you could just have an idea of how the person may look like but mostly i am just working on the actual story.

I know that i may be coming off as a bit emotional right now especially since i have never posted something like this to all you before but i need you to understand that i am doing my best to keep you all happy. I mean reading these messages about you guys saying that i just copy from shows or that this all seems a bit dramatic...ugh! look let's be honest alot of people get insiration from books or shows that they have watches. So if they are allowed to do that, why can't I? Some of you do comment shows and that is totally okay because some of you actuall comment it because you see me referencing you favorite shows and because of my cast members. I totally understand and i love you for it. What i don't love is when it's meant in a very ...hatred manner i guess you could say.

Like thinking about it now... i do feel like i am not being original but i think that it's just all of these words getting into my head. I don't know, i really do enjoy writing but is it really worth it if i'm just going to have people judge me all the time? I can take critizism, i love reading all of your beautiful comments on how excited you get when something intense happens in my story because that is all that i want. 

I want my writing to make you all feel something so i am sorry if i am not "original" but please do remember i am doing my best. I am doing my best to take some time out of my busy day to update to all of you. I love you guys and i just want you all to know that some of you have really changed my life for the better...

To my beautiful readers who have stuck by me all of this time, THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH! Thank you so much for every little comment you all have sent to me on either my chapters or on my message board. I really do love you guys soooo much! 

And as for the insecure part of me i do want to apologize if my stories seem pretty boring, dramatic or unoriginal. 

I'm sorry this was not a very happy update but out of all the this the main point is that the readers who actually do love me i want to say that i love you a thousand times more! This is very strange and personal for me to upload here but i need you guys to know that i am human.Guys, i am sorry this is sooo long...God, now i am acutally feeling bad that i am writing this. Like i know i'm going to make some of you upset and it literally goes against what i have been trying to tell you. I just want to make you happy.

I would also like to take this opportunity to tell you guys if you would like me to do a Q&A chapter? I have never done one before but this is all up to you. So please do feel free to leave any questions down below regarding my story, characters, or any specific scenes. You could also ask me what might be coming next or soemthing like that... i don't know. Please, feel free to ask anything about me as well, i will try to answer as honestly as i can. 

I don't know this may be wierd but i think it might be interesting to do. So this is all up to you. I will do a Q&A if any of you actually ask questions. 

You can ask as many questions as you like :) 

Love you babes! xxx