Through the Awakening (Harry Styles) [Bk. 2]

16. I Know

Author's Note

Hello my loves! I am not sure if this is going to be the last chapter that i am going to be updating tonight but if it is i do hope you enjoy it. I have a few questions for you guys: What do all of you think of Niall being so hostile towards Harry? What do you guys think about Harry's situation? Should he just walk away and leave Elizabeth alone?

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Elizabeth’s POV

“He left, Eleanor. “ I sobbed holding her hands sitting with our legs crossed on my bed facing each other. Eleanor had tears down her cheeks; she always does this when I cry. If I cry she cries because she is the only one who understands how I feel.

“It’s okay, Elizabeth. It’ll be okay” She soothed rubbing her thumbs against the back of my hands. I blinked away my tears shaking my head at her.

“No, Eleanor, it’s not okay.” I said pulling my hands away from her standing up from the bed. Eleanor stared at me with confusion written on her face.

“I gave him a choice, Eleanor.” I said wiping my nose with the back of my hand, not caring that I look disgusting or unlady like. “I told him that if he doesn’t care, like he says he didn’t than, he should walk away and it would be the last time I would ever see him or if he still cared…” I paused holding back a sob taking in a deep breathe. “If he still loved me than he should stay…but he walked away.” I said biting on my lower lip to stop it from trembling.

Eleanor frowned and stood up from the bed walking over to me. Before she could open her mouth I interrupted her and pushed her hands away from me knowing that she was going to hug me.

“No, Eleanor!” I snapped taking a step back. “I know what you are going to say.” I nodded holding my hands out in front of me palms forward. “You’re going to say that you are sorry but you think that it’s for the best. That I deserve so much better than him, someone who actually loves me.” I said making air quotes with my fingers.

“Newsflash Eleanor!” I scowled tears still streaming down my already tearstained face. “Harry did love me okay? I love him and he loved me. He was the only one who actually gave a fuck about me!“  

“You don’t understand I can’t let him go, Eleanor.” I shook my head taking a few steps away from her as if that was going to stop her from disagreeing.

Eleanor pursed her lips sniffing. “I wasn’t going to say that, Elizabeth.” She whispered shaking her head at me. “I was going to say that it’ll be okay because we are all here for you, we all love you. It’s your choice if you want to let go of him right now not mine. However, you do know that you have to let go eventually right?” I nodded slowly at her knowing that it was true…but I can’t it hurts to much.

I heard the door click open and saw Niall and Louis walk in closing the door behind them.  Niall looked at me and quickly walked over wrapping his arms around me. I sobbed and pressed my hands against his chest trying to push him away.

“NO!” I sobbed pressing harder against his chest pushing him away from me. “Let me go!” I said and Niall looked at me with wide blue eyes and slightly parted lips. I walked passed him walking towards the door, Louis tried to stop me but I pushed him away and ran out the door.

“Elizabeth, wait!” Niall yelled behind me but I ignored him and continued on running. When I finally reached the entrance of the school I started to make my way out of the school grounds. I had to get out of here, away from the school away from this world that used to be hidden away from me.  I can’t take this any longer, I just can’t. It’s so unbearable.

I know Harry and I know that he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me but I guess I was wrong. All of the I love you’s , hugs, and kisses. All of the sweet gestures, the surprises and having coffee and midnight were all a lie. He actually never cared for me because if he did he wouldn’t have walked away. I still love him and I always will, I’m going to hold on because I know that even though I try to let go I know that if I let him go completely I will die.