Through the Awakening (Harry Styles) [Bk. 2]

32. Losing Grip

Author's Note

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Harry’s POV

“Mr. Styles, calm down” Mr. Heartwood said from behind me. Liam released his grip on me and I turned around to face him.

“Alright, everybody, get back to your seats” Mr. Heartwood ordered dismissing the group of students that were around us.  Mr. Heartwood sighed and motioned me to follow him. Once we reached his office he closed the door behind us to keep our conversation in private.

“Look, I know what you are going to say.” I speak up as he walked over to his desk. “You’re going to say that what I did was a very wrong thing to do that I know better…but it’s not my fault.”

“Actually, yes I was going to say that but to be honest if I were in your situation I would do the same thing.” He said taking a seat in his leather chair loosening up his tie from around his neck.

“I don’t know what you are talking about.” I lie shaking my head with a shrug my arms crossed over my chest, a bit wave of annoyance ringing in my voice. I don’t want him to know what is going on. Why would I? I’m pretty sure he has better things to do than to deal with “teenager problems”

Mr. Heartwood smiled at me. “You and I both know that what you did back there was your Othello moment.” He paused. “You’re jealous it’s understandable and-“

“I’m sorry, Sir but you are in no position to tell me what my feelings are. I mean you don’t know even know what’s happening.”

“You’d be surprised, Harry. “ He stated” Anyways, this is a conversation for another day, and don’t do it again.” He said sternly.

I nodded. “Uh.. yes, Sir.” I replied and dismissed myself walking out of his office.

Elizabeth’s POV

I was sitting outside of the nurse’s office on a small dark wooden bench waiting for Aaron to come out. Luckily, nothing major was done to his face. I shook my head in disgust seeing the event play back in my mind. Harry has no right to do this. He left me, does he not remember that?

“Hey” I heard someone speak up. I glance up to my left and see Harry standing there with soft green eyes and a busted lip. I groan and roll my eyes looking away from him. Well, speak of the devil and the devil shall appear.

“What do you want Harry?” I asked with a bit of anger in my voice and looked up at him. “Haven’t you caused enough damage already?”

“Look I know your upset but you don’t know-“

“Upset?!” I say interrupting raising my eyebrows at him. “I’m not upset Harry, that would be an understatement. I am furious with you!” I spat.

‘Why?!” He asks looking at me with green burning eyes. “ All I’m trying to do is protect you.”

“You want to protect me? Is this what you call protecting?” I reply narrowing my eyes at him. “Then I’m sorry but you and I have very different definitions on the word protection because I know that beating your ex-girlfriend’s  boyfriend out of pure jealousy isn’t one of them.”

“It’s not out of pure jealousy, Elizabeth!” Harry snapped at me. “I mean if you heard the things that he was saying and-“

“I don’t want to know Harry!” I yell at him losing my grip on my temper. I quickly stand up and start walking away from him.  I’ll just call Aaron and ask me to meet me outside when he comes out of the nurse’s office. I pull out my phone from my pocket when suddenly I was forced to be turned around by my arm.

“Harry, let me go” I state looking up at him brushing the few strands of hair that flew in front of my face.

“No, not until you listen to me Elizabeth. “ He says sternly and slowly releases his grip on my arm.

“I told you, I don’t want to know anything.”  I complain and turn back around.

“Elizabeth would you just wait!” Harry pleaded. “Just let me explain-“

“Fine!” I snap and turn to look at him. “You want to explain things to me? “ I ask and stalk angrily towards him pointing my hand towards him that had my cellphone in a tight grip. “Why the hell did you come back here?” I ask through clenched teeth letting my anger fuel me looking back and forth from him eyes. I am not going to show him that he has some sort of power over me.

“And you better not give me some bullshit about you feeling guilty and sorry for hurting me because if you did than wouldn’t have beaten my boyfriend up. Now would you?” I add with attitude. Harry gazes down at me with a frown on his face but there was a mix of anger and hurt in his eyes but didn’t say anything because he knew what I said was right.

I scoff and look down at the ground letting out a small shaky laugh blinking my tears away from my eyes that were starting to form out of frustration. “You know what, Harry, since the day you left I have never wanted anything more than… for you to come back and be with me because I love you. However, right now I don’t want anything more other than for you to just… leave me alone.”

“You want me to leave?” He ask in a calm voice but I could still tell that he was upset.

“Before you showed up here everything was fine!” I yelled but it came out sounding more like a sob. “I hate feeling this way Harry! I hate that no matter how hard I try to avoid you or to forget you… I can’t.” I shake my head feeling disappointed in myself and completely utterly weak.

“Then don’t” He whispered. I tilted my head to the side and let out a breath.

“Harry, you left me…twice.” I pointed out biting on my lower lip. “Do you not remember that?”

“Yes” He said in a quiet low voice giving me a nod.” But Elizabeth I-“

“Harry please...” I plea, my voice sounding shaky and uncontrolled, as I stare into his eyes. Stop, don’t you dare cry Elizabeth!

“Just please don’t make this harder than it has to me. Okay?”  I continue holding my hands together in front of my chest. “You left so I took that as a sign that you didn’t want me anymore.” I sigh and lick my lips.

“So now that I finally moved on… now that I finally forced myself to erase you, you decided to just show up here and pick up where we left off?” I say holding my arm out and shrug. “ Expecting me to just dumb Aaron?”

“Elizabeth, Aaron isn’t who you think he is, you can’t be with him. Please, you have to believe me” He pleaded grabbing my hand for a couple of seconds before I pulled it away.

“You are in no position to tell me that.” I whisper looking down and twine my hands together biting down on my lip on the verge of tears. “I have to go” I say and quickly turn around walking away from him crossing my arms over my chest hugging myself. I pick up my pace feeling tears flow down my cheeks as I reach the end of the hallway making the turn around the corner.