I Can't Loose You Too (Kiribaku)

(12) I don't want to let go

The picture above is what they're wearing to the funeral btw. But Bakugou's tie is black. Anyway let's get on with the story

When we arrived I asked Kat to go on without me grab a seat next to mine. Being their daughter I had my seat reserved although nobody knew if I was actually coming. I also asked him not to mention that I was here or that he'd seen me. When he left I just sat there thinking. Luckily his car had tinted windows so nobody could result see me inside.

As I was thinking I overheard a conversation caught my ear. It sounded like a man and woman talking.
"-yea but I heard the eldest son already moved away he's married and all and the other child is a daughter who is only a second year in high school poor soul" I heard the woman say
"I heard that she locked herself away ever since she heard the news...I doubt she'd even show up for the funeral" the man shrugged
"She must be depressed or something I would be if I was her but-" she was cut off by another voice "it's starting"

Shit, I pulled myself together and slowly got out of the car when I was sure they were gone. I walked slowly to the garden where they were burying them. My dad's side of the family-owned it and it's where his parents were buried but farther was it was quite huge. As I walked to my best in the front I heard whispers and feel eyes on me. I was trying to hold in the tears as I slowly walked looking down at my feet. I took my seat next to Zach, in Infront of Kat who had Min to his right and Denki to his left. I could also see his parents a few rows behind them. On my other side was my Grandfather...my mom's dad. He was the only one of my Grandparents alive. "Glad you came," Zach said holing my hand. "Of course I did," I said trying to smile at him. The funeral started and everyone was speaking. First Zach, then a few Aunts and uncles then my Grandfather. I was already crying but just silent tears falling down my face. When my grandfather finished I was shocked by what he said last as all eyes were on me now.

"And the last to speak will be their other child Ejira Kirishima" I didn't want to speak. I didn't have anything. Zach squeezed my hand and eyed the podium at the front of the garden. I slowly got up and walked there. I was still crying. I tied to pull myself together but it wasn't working. Then I saw Mina and Zach taking then Mina came up and took my hand. "You got this just speak from your heart" I smiled at her then and Zach and Kat it was a week smile but I tried my best. I took a deep breath

"I'm not going to lie I do not want to be here right now" I heard a few gasps from the ground but I continued
"You know where is much rather be?....at home with my mom and dad my sisters and brother...I know this is just as hard on some of you as it is on me..." I looked at Zach and his wife. "But I'm sure my mom, and dad" I looked at my uncles and aunts and my parent's friends. "Aki.." I looked at her boyfriend and a small group of her friends. "Dabi and Toga" I looked at the Shigaraki's and some of their classmates who came."I'm sure they wouldn't want to see us sad...I'm truly trying my best to say goodbye to them... it's hard you know"

I sobbed a little as Mina rubbed circles on my back. "Finding out you passed finals then coming downstairs to her your family is gone can really bring you down. I remember that day when the break was over and we were going back to school...  I kept hugging and kissing them saying goodbye like twenty times....and when I was about to kiss Dabi's check again he pushed my face away laughing and his exact words were 'you're acting like you're never gonna see us again calm down Ei' and those were the last words my little bother said to me in person " I broke down but pulled my self together and continued. "As I was in my boyfriend's car trying to pull myself together to come here I heard some people talking" I heard some whispers.

"This was really hard on me...I did the weirdest things.....like when I first heard they were dead I called Aki's phone....knew she wouldn't answer but part of me was hoping to hear her cheery voice on the other side...and when they were still alive I'd call my mom every night, to say good night. It's something she made me promise to do since I joined U.A. so every night I continued to call her and when he didn't answer is leave I voice messages. I still do this even last night I know it sounds silly but part of me just doesn't want to let go. Part of me doesn't want to accept the truth. But thank goo to everyone who's supported me and helped me through this I really appreciate you" I looked at my classmates and family. "That's all I have to say or all go on forever. Just thank you all for being part of their lives and I'm sure they'd be so happy to know you made time to come and say goodbye I'm really grateful to each and every one of you for coming."

I help Mina's hand as we walked back to our seats. The rest went fine it finished not shortly after and everyone was just talking. I went and sat in Kat's lap burying my face in his chest crying. Mina sat next to him rubbing my back in comfort and giving everyone who tried to talk to me a 'not now' look. "Ei I'm so proud of you," Zach said crouched down in front of Kat. I slowly stopped hugging him wiping my tears and standing up. Zach also stood and without warning, I latched myself onto him. "I went to the garden today before I came here," was all I could say still hugging him. "Oh did you?" "Mhmm" we stayed like this for a while then I let go.

"Zach Mr. Aizawa said you and Midnight took custody of me for that mean every break I'd have to fly out?" "Well about that Mina's parents said they don't mind you staying with them sometimes if you like since it's closer to all your friends...rather then staying with us far away but you can always come to visit.." "Thanks so much" "of course...plus we still own the house so you can go there if you'd like...but don't stay alone" I just hummed. "Anyway I'm in town till next week so don't be a stranger little sis," he said walking to his wife "I won't"

I had to talk to a few people. It was mostly them saying how good my speech was or how I'm always welcome to talk to them" Shigaraki asked me if he could keep the dog since it was technically mine but they'd been taking care of it. So I agreed to say Toga and Dabi would want him to have it anyway. Then I talked to his parents then they left. I went to join Kat and his parents. 

His mom was super kind and said I could always stay over which I was super grateful for. Some of my classmates who came had already left but gave me a hug or wave before they left, and Todoroki even told me I could have some of his cold soba in the evening, then awkwardly waved and left. I knew he wasn't good with feelings and all so I appreciated that he was trying his best. After it was over Kat took Denki, Sero, and Jirou home in his car. But I said I'd come with Mina because I wanted to talk to her and she was the one who gave the rest of the squad a ride here in the first place. "Hey, Mina...thanks for being such an awesome best friend I really don't deserve you" "ha of course your welcome but don't say that I'm sure you'd have done the same for me". We made up and talking and laughing and screaming the lyrics to some of our favorite songs all the way back.

I hope you liked this chapter I'm like super emotional so I'm almost cried writing it