*English oneshot*
Nico;
"Are you alright?" "No." Kurt locked the door of our bedroom. "Do you want to talk about this?" "No." He opened his laptop. "Can I help you with this?" Kurt wrote an Email address. "No." "Is it about Raaya?" He didn't say a thing, and I knew I was right. He gave up the Email and started a new tab. I sat on his bed next to him. "What are you doing?" "YouTube." "OK. Watching...?" "A new series on my favurite channel. Why?" I shrugged. "No reason. What's the series' name?" "Tishalu et Lana," he said. "Why?" "I don't know."
I closed his laptop. "Kurt, listen to me. Did Raaya hurt you or-" "NO!" He shouted. "No. No, no, noooooo. Raaya would NEVER hurt me. It's just..." He breathed deeply. "I don't know why I'm so sad about it. It's not like she ever cared about me. I was just another friend of her's... Nothing special. She always said that Niki and Naama (Again: Na-a-ma) are her best friends, and..." He took another breath. "She didn't know how much it insalted me, how hard I tried to... You know, get to that next step. Not boyfriend... I was never in romantic love with her. I just wanted to be there..." He shrugged, and his blue eyes filled with tears. "You have no idea how much I wanted to tell her what I wanted. I never did, and never really knew why. Now I think that I was just afraid tp lose her. It's like in all those books, the guy is in love with a girl, and he's scared that she doesn't feel the same... Just without the kisses and [WARNING!] sex and all that stuff... Just a friend... But a best friend. Raaya was my only friend for so long, and now..." He stopped talking. I remembered that each time he was crying, ever since we were kids, he was saying to himself: "Po ze lo sadnat bekhy... Po ze lo sadnat bekhy..." And it always, ALWAYS, helped him to stop crying. I think he just held it inside, not telling anyone about what he really feels like, for so long, that he simpally forgot how to do it. Help me, guys. I think my brother needs help.
*BASED ON MY FRIENDSHIP WITH MY BFF RAAYA BLOCH*
*מבוסס על החברות האמיתית שלי עם חברתי רעיה בלוך, לא אין תרגום.*
