Not So Average Life

19- First boyfriend?

My broken leg finally healed a week later. I was sitting alone during lunch on a Tuesday. While I was just spending time alone with myself like always, I saw Jace. He had some bruises on his face and he was walking towards me. I wanted to see him but now that I did, I didn't want to. I don't know how to face him. He betrayed me, haven't answer any of my texts or return any of my calls. I took my lunch tray and quickly scatter off hoping he doesn't see me. I couldn't deal with any of these shit. At least not now.

I dumped all the food into the trash can and made my way to the next class. Just then, someone grabbed my hand and stopped me. In shock, I turned expecting to see Jace. But it was Ryan.

"Emma, will you be my girlfriend?" He asked confidently with a smirk on his face. Although I was taken by surprise, how could I say no to that gorgeous face. After recovering from my shock, my face slowly turned into a smile and I shyly nodded.

"Is that a yes?" Ryan's eyes lit up.

"Yes, I'll be your gir... girlfriend." I said while blushing intensely. It was the first time in history I got confessed to.

Just then I saw Jay and his other friends in the crowd. Some looked happy but some were slapping their forehead as if they just lost something.

"I told you she would say yes!" Ryan suddenly shouted to Jay And the others.

"You're right, she really is just a dumb bitch." Cameron sighed.

"Fine, you win you win." Jay ruffled his hair. "Ugh now I owe you thirty dollars."

"Yea you do." Ryan had a huge smirk plastered across his face.

Was I all just a bet? For once I was happy about something it's just a bet? This 'thing' between me and Ryan never existed. My feelings to them was nothing more than just a toy for them to play. A bet.

"I told you she'd accept." Bryce laughed. "She's desperate."

"Guys I think we should stop." Axel cut in, but it didn't mattered anymore. All the voices and laughers slowly faded into the background. My mind became blank. All I could think of is getting away from there. I ran out the door and start running. I ran and I ran. Onto the raining streets all the way back home. Sean was at home with some of his friends when I entered.

"Aren't you suppose to be in school? Why are you soaked?" Sean asked curiously but I didn't cared. I ran straight to my room. Shut the door and broke down crying.

I couldn't take anything anymore. I feel like my heart was dying everyday. I didn't know just how long more I could stand this. Why was everything going wrong for me.

Ryan's point of view-
"This school is literally so boring. All the girls are like so easy man." I told Jay.

"I know right. We especially have a lot of dumb bitches like her." Jay replied.

"Wouldn't she be really mad at you?" Cameron asked.

"Ya, who would help you do your homework from now on?" Bryce added.

"Ha, don't worry." I flipped my hair. "She's had a crush on me since I don't know when. She's just a little angry, she'll fall back in love with me after a while if I was just nice to her a little." I answered like it didn't matter.

Emma's point of view-
A razor blade made its way into my sight. I was suddenly overwhelmed by the urge to use it. Next thing I know, I was holding the razor blade trembling, with it only being an inch away from my wrist.

Flashback-
"Mom. Mom can you hear me?" I broke down crying in tears beside her bed in the hospital.

"E.. Em?" She weakly said.