Endgame Romanogers Fanfic

Chapter 36

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As the ship tilted as Steve pulled the stick to make the ship reach the ideal altitude, he looked at Natasha again, he wanted to make sure he was really with her there because it was still surreal and very wonderful that she was alive, he smiled with satisfaction and relief when he reaffirmed that it was real.

Steve turned his attention forward and his mind made him look at Natasha again, her condition was too catatonic to ignore.

Steve: Are you okay?

Natasha: Don't talk to me.

Steve frowned at the cross answer.

Steve: Nat??

Steve called and Natasha did not answer, she was looking down and she felt dizzy and weak, besides having a tight heart of concern for Sarah, she believes that she is real.

Steve: Nat, don't be like this... please, I'm doing this for your sake.

Steve commented, feeling sorry for Natasha.

Natasha: I want my daughter.

Steve: Natasha... did you believe you were with an animal hours ago... what was his name? He had a name, right? You said he was your friend and you saw it was not real, nothing was real. Do you understand that, right?

Natasha did not answer.

Steve: It was all in your head, there was nothing there... nor the colors you reported, it was all a burnt grass.

Natasha: Am I crazy, then?

Steve: You are not crazy.

Natasha: But just being crazy to believe in my daughter, I refuse to believe she was not real... because Steve, I felt her inside me, it wasn't something outside, it was inside me, I felt her growing and moving inside me and I felt all the pains of her birth, I breastfed her.. I felt her suck milk from me! I saw her smile for the first time, I felt her soft skin and the breath of her breaths. I heard her babble the first sounds, I taught her to speak Mommy and mama and she says more 'no-no' than anything else and she likes to nurse while looking at me and she likes it when I'm looking back at her...

Steve listened carefully.

Natasha: I saw her crawl for the first time and I saw how much she likes to play in the water and how much she hates being covered, even in the cold... I don't want to believe that she is an invention of my mind. I can't accept that.

Natasha looked Steve in the eye.

Natasha: I can't because I love that baby with all my strength and all my heart. I can't leave without her.

Steve: But she doesn't exist, Natasha.

Natasha rubbed a hand over her face, wiping away a tear from many others that started to run from her eyes in sequence.

Steve: I'm sorry, my love...

Steve reached out to touch Natasha's leg, but she dodged.

Steve was now placing the ship in a horizontal position when reaching the desired altitude.

Steve: You have to think about James, Natasha... he is real and he is waiting for you.

Natasha closed her eyes tight, crying even more when she heard about James.

Steve: Don't you want to see him??

Natasha: Yes!

Natasha nodded and cried more, she feels divided and in a very big internal conflict.