Endgame Romanogers Fanfic

Chapter 30

Fuzzy, Natasha's new friend, one of the creatures that lives in Vormir and that she took and domesticated to live with her, sat and looked at her after she stopped vomiting.

Natasha: Everything I did in Earth and here was only to get my baby back, Fuzzy.

Natasha commented to Fuzzy while hugging her own belly.

Natasha: I know it wasn't supposed to happen that way, because... I thought I would be able to go back to Earth and then there, we would use the stones and bring everyone back. But how could I ever imagine that my destiny would never be to return to my son and for Steve??

Natasha was still sitting on the sand, she looked away and stared at nothing.

Natasha: I never planned to not return and every day here I think about my son, who I left behind and to whom I broke my promise to come back for him and I also broke my pact with Steve...

Natasha sighed.

Natasha: I just hope that someday he can forgive me, that they both can forgive me. I want James to know that it wasn't an exchange... I didn't exchange him for his brother, it just happened that way... and now... even Red Skull saying that I can get out of here, having one more soul... how would I get out anyway? This means one soul for another so this baby in my belly would have to stay and I would never leave him behind and I don't know what his future will be like in here...

Natasha felt her eyes blurry with tears, she looked back at Fuzzy.

Natasha: Even if I send only the baby away... where would he go by himself? I am trapped in Vormir and worse I am trapped in the past and not in their presente moment, no one would come to rescue this baby.

Natasha thought about it.

Natasha: I also wonder if this baby could live here? All this temperature variation here, these storms and those wild animals... would he survive?

Fuzzy made a sound, which Natasha always interprets as if he is saying that he understands what she is saying.

Natasha: He will survive...

Natasha replied to console herself.

Natasha: And he will keep us company because I already gave my life for him once, so I am capable of everything to keep him safe.

Natasha gave a small smile.

Natasha: I feel happy, Fuzzy... very happy...

Natasha smiled more and went back to lie on the sand, she left her hands on her belly.

Natasha: I finally have a reason to stay sane in this place.

Natasha declared while stroking her belly. Fuzzy jumped in the sand then lay down next to her, very close to her belly and took that moment to take a nap.

While Fuzzy rested, Natasha's mind seethed, in addition to constantly thinking about James and Steve, something that was routine and obsessive for her, she started to think about her pregnancy and what it would be like to have a pregnancy in that hostile environment.

Natasha concluded that as long as the baby is inside her, he will survive and be fine, the problem is when he is born. If the weather be hot as hell like right now, the baby just needs to be naked, just as she practically is right now by the way. But what about in the cold? The ship would protect a bit but not enough. Where to get fabric to protect the baby from the cold?

Natasha could only think of a way out... wait for the Red Skull to appear again, kill him and steal his clothes. The only problem is that she doesn't know if Red Skull would reappears naked next time and she doesn't want the baby to have a vision like that. It would be his first trauma.