Endgame Romanogers Fanfic

Chapter 19

How much is a person able to cry? Natasha wondered inside the bathtub, her eyes still blurred by tears, she wants to regain control over herself because she has already cried too much. Why is she still crying?

Natasha asked and sank completely in the bathtub, she kept her eyes open under the water and stayed as long as possible under the water, until she couldn't take any more then returned to the surface, breathing deeply and finally more controlled.

Natasha got out of the bath and wrapped herself in the towel, she went to the mirror and ran her hand over it because it was totally foggy like steam from the bath.

Natasha stared at herself in the mirror for a few minutes, then brushed her teeth, brushed all her hair back and went back to the room.

The only thing she could do was try to sleep, she didn't dry herself properly, not even her hair, she just lay down still wrapped in the towel and closed her eyes.

Natasha managed to doze off for a few hours, she woke to the sound of knocking on the door.

Natasha just opened her eyes but she didn't move or respond.

- Natasha??

Natasha recognized Rhodey's voice.

Rodhey: Are you there? Nat?

Natasha did not answer.

Rodhey: Can I come in?

Rhodey opened the door a little.

Rodhey: Nat??

Natasha was lying on her side, but with her back to the door.

Rodhey: Steve asked to call you. Dinner is ready...

Rhodey commented and Natasha remained silent.

Rodhey: Are you coming?

Natasha: I'm not hungry.

Rodhey: Are you all right?

Natasha: Yes, I am just tired.

Rodhey: Okay. Do you want me to bring you something?

Natasha: No, I'm fine.

Rodhey: Okay... Good night.

Natasha nodded and Rhodey left the room, he went down and told Steve that Natasha was not going to come down.

As Natasha predicted, after a few hours, Steve returned to her room, he went straight in, without knocking.

Steve: I brought you some fruit... since you haven't eaten anything.

Steve placed the apple on the bedside table.

Steve: I know you are not sleeping.

Natasha didn't move for that.

Steve: Did something happen?

Natasha: Like what?

Steve: I don't know.

Natasha: It turns out that... half the people we know have died... they are gone and will never come back.

Natasha replied and turned on the bed, lying on her back, she looked at Steve who was looking at her back.

Steve sighed and nodded, he opened his mouth to say something, but stopped when Natasha spoke again.

Natasha: You don't have to tell me anything, Steve. I know it is a tragedy, I know we are not to blame.