Rewind
Deshae pov
I was sitting on the couch with Tavin watching American Idol and we were eating popcorn and talking about prom. "Omg she sounds good" I said changing the subject for a second. We got quiet so we could hear the girl sing. "But yeah ima go get my makeup done at MAC" I said jumping back into the conversation. Just then, my phone vibrated. And it had to be August. "Hey" he said. "Hey stranger" I responded. I knew Tavin was looking down but I didnt think it was a problem because he didnt say anything. "You wanna go out this weekend with me?" August responded. "Ill let you know soon. We gotta get to know each other some way lol" I said. Tavin tapped my leg for me to move over and he got up and went upstairs. I didnt know if he was upset or not so I waited a few minutes until I went after him. When I went upstairs, he was laying back on the bed with the remote in his hand. "Why you leave me down there?" I said crawling next to him. "You was texting ya boy so I wanted to give yall some alone time" he said shrugging. I rolled my eyes. "Tavin hes a friend. I told you that. You get so upset with me but you wont even claim me" I said getting upset. "I dont claim you?! Really Deshae?!! I cut everybody off for you. They all know what our relationship is. It dont gotta be official but they know you fuckin mines!!" He said yelling. "WELL ACT LIKE YOU CARE! !" I said getting up and slamming the door behind me. I ran down the stairs and grabbed my stuff leaving his house. I wiped the tears from my face and walked down the street by myself. I couldnt let my mom see me like this. I sat down on the sidewalk and just cried. I didnt know how he felt about me so I was just trying to make it clear. We are drifting and I dont want that but the fact he doesnt see it upsets me. After calming myself down, I called Alexis and told her i was coming over and I tried to call Tamia but she wasnt answering. I ran to Alexis' s house and knocked on the door. She opened it and pulled me into a tight hug. "Aww baby its okay. Come on sit down and talk to me" she said. I followed her to her room and we talked. "So are you guys okay? Do I need to talk to him? Prom is next week and you cant be mad at each other." She said. I thought about it and I shook my head. "I need to clear this up myself." I said. Its gonna break me but I gotta come to some type of conclusion between us. Hes leaving and thats all im trying to let go of.
Tavin pov
Im tired of trying to satisfy Deshae. I just want it to all be over. She never happy. I called up Nick and told him I needed to talk to him. He told me Tamia was there but to come over anyways. I threw on a jacket and some basketball shorts and left out.
When I got there he was sitting on the porch smoking a blunt. I walked up and dapped him up. "Whats goin through ya head man. I can see the pain all in ya face" he said. "Man Deshae. She expect too much. She up here talkin to other dudes but want me to make me and her official" I explained to him. He passed me the blunt. I dont even smoke but I had to take this and it felt good too. "Just relax man. Yall got prom next week. This shit unnecessary. And you aint willin to come see her when you gone so yall might as well just let it go as friends." He said. I nodded and let his words flow through my mind. "She love you tho yo. Trust me." He said. Tamia came out the house and said hey to me. "What yall talkin about out here?" She said. "We talkin about grown folks business so mind yours" Nick said. She walked over and smacked him in his head. "Get smart again punk." She said. He smacked her butt as she walked away. "Oww!!" She yelled as she walked back in the house. "See yall mature. I need what yall got" I told him. "Nahh dont wish on no relationship. We not always peachy" he said. I looked at him cause I knew he was high when he said "peachy". We both laughed a little then went in the house to play some 2k.
Tamia pov
I went back in the house to check my phone and seen that Deshae had called me. When my girls call me, I know they need me. I called her back and she answered on the 3rd ring. "Hey baby girl. I was sleeping but whats wrong?" I said curious. "Come to Alexis house" she said. I got a little nervous but I agreed. I walked out the house and told Nick I would see him later. I walked down to her house and knocked on the door. Alexis opened the door and let me in. Deshae was just sitting on the couch with her legs crossed staring at the tv. She didnt even notice I had came in. I stood in front of her and she looked up at me then did a weak smile. "Hey" I said grabbing one of her curls. "Wassup" she said softly. "Tell mama whats wrong" I said sitting down next to her waiting for her to talk. "Me and Tavin got in a argument because he saw me texting August & August wanted to meet up with me and I agreed. I jusy dont see whats wrong. He doesnt give me any attention anyway." She said. I nodded to confirm that I was listening. "I know all in love or whatever, but boo hes leaving. You gotta remember that. I see yall drifting apart and all I can say is let it go. I know its hard but after prom, its basically over. You can and will find better." I said. She nodded and gave me a hug. "Thank you boo" she said. I smiled and Alexis did too. " I love yall" Deshae said with the pouty lip. "We love you too honey" Alexis said. Before we knew it, we were all chillin on the couch taking pictures and I was doing Deshae's hair. "Here go your bestfriend" Alexis said flashing Deshae a picture of Bria (the one that was hugged up on Tavin) from instagram. "Ew gross" Deshae said making us laugh. My phone had rang and it was Nick. "Hey babe" I said answering it. "Wyd" he said. "Im at Alexis house with her and Deshae" I said. "Ohard well call me later. Ill let yall have yall time" he said. "Ard bae" I said hanging up. We turned on Bad Girls Club and just ate junk until we got tired. "Im sleepy yall" I told Deshae and Alexis. "Yeah me too" Desahe said. "I think ima go home now and get some sleep for school. " she said. We all agreed and I walked home with Deshae.
When I got home, I dragged myself up to my room and dived in the bed. "Guess ill be showering in the morning" I said to myself. Just as I was falling asleep, my phone started ringing. Of course it was Nick. "Hello?" I said in my sleepy voice. "Babe I just got in a fight in the alley. I need you. I need help." He said. My eyes popped open and I hopped out the bed and told my mom what happened. "Oh no lets go" she said throwing on her nikes. She grabbed the keys and we drove to the alley.
When we got to the alley, I didnt see Nick. I called him and he came out of a liquor store. "Babe wtf are you doing?! You need to stay out of these streets! You gonna get hurt and I need you! " I said trying to hold back tears. "Im sorry babe. You know I cant get out the streets that easily." He said. "Nick you have a job. What the hell are these streets doing for you? You need to quit." I told him letting the tears fall. H grabbed me and we got in the car. "Nick you can stay with me for tonight. Ill let your mom know your with me but im not telling her about the fight." My mom told him. "Thanks ma. I'm sorry for putting all this stress on yall" he said. "It's fine baby, just be careful out here" she told him. He nodded and we were on our way back to my house.
When we got in, I rushed upstairs and Nick followed me. I dived in my bed again and put my face in my pillow. I felt Nick sit down beside me then he laid his head on my back. "Baby im sorry. You know I dont want to leave you by yourself" he said a little above a whisper. "Nick we can talk about this tomorrow. Its almost 11:00 & im tired." I told him. He sighed and laid on the pillow next to me. I dont remember anything after that. I was stressed.
Nick pov
I was up for about 2 more hours after Mia fell asleep. I kept thinking about her losing me. I hate having thoughts like this but I gotta defend my brothers. Maybe she right tho. I got a good job that pays well and im out here thuggin. I shouldve thought about this before I started selling weed. I gotta change man. I dont wanna leave no bad impressions no more. I love my girlfriend and her mother and if they need me, ima be here. I got my mother to take care of since she pregnant and all and I gotta be a man. I wrapped my arm around Tamia and I fell asleep at about 2 something. Maybe ill stay home tomorrow and fix myself up.
