Forbidden desires

Chapter 51

My dear readers,

Well if you're still reading the book man god help you because you're hooked. I hope. So we will do a Q and A soon. I want reviews and comments oh please fill the book with it. It's something I like as a writer. To know what you are thinking.

When I started this book I was well 15 years old, back then the book was less sexual and it did not hold the same meaning to me.

To explain some of things to you about this book, well for one let's talk about Sky and Chris. So the book was first published on wattpad and there was this recurring question I was getting why did I add Chris. Like I could rolled with the whole Sky thing I mean from the introduction we all know that whether she ends up with Sky or not she is definitely going to fuck him and the thing is they keep asking why have I built the character of Chris in so much detail. You know makes you hate Sky and Aiyana come what may.

To answer that.

Here's the deal, I have tried to bring out parallelism. Sky to me represents the novel romanticism of men. In a world where everyone is having a crush on Christian grey, or Dominic Stone or Gideon Cross so he's so much like them. Authoritative, dominant and mercurial. He will always cook and make gestures and everything while Chris on the other hand represents worldly love to me. Slow romance and the works. Aiyana and Chris and not together out of unreigned passion or explosive sex. They are together because they understand each other, know each other. Chris rarely uses big words or does those huge gestures but he's the type that stays. You see Sky and Chris are the difference between what you want and what you need. Sky being the want obviously.

So yeah I hope that answers at least that question.

Two, Sierra and Sky's marriage. Well, that's where I wanted to deal with empty marriages and loneliness and baggage. I don't know why that is of great importance to talk about but it is.

Three, no neither Chris nor Sky are based on real people. I wish they were but they aren't. But some of the scenes sex excluded; are written from my own life. Bits and pieces of a beautiful relationship.

Also sometimes love is not enough to stay together. You'll know which question this answer by the end of the book.

Well to get on with the chapter.

Also I am going to apologize from the beginning for this part because well I am going through shit. This boy that I thought was different turned out to be exactly like every other player ever. Although to be honest he is really bad at it. Anyways long story short thanks to NG I well don't believe in love or romance anymore. I am so fucking tired that I give up. I tried writing romance but as you can see the last few chapters have been dead. I stopped writing for a while but now I am really running out of previous chapters that I wrote so now you are going to deal with problems of a break up cause I am still fucking sad and I'd rather not write about romance till I can at least feel enough inside to be able to write about things I wish I had.

So to all of you who don't feel good enough this chapter is for you.

Love,

Forlorn Shadows.

Aiyana walked into her room to find Scarlett crying. She was curled up at the center of the bed, with her face buried in the pillow as her bright pink hair fanned over with her voice barely a whisper. Aiyana walked to Scarlett without a word, her fingers reached out ran along the waves of the previously blonde hair, simply brushing it back and forth letting her cry it out.

After what felt like an eternity Scarlett stopped crying and looked up, her eyes were blood shot red and her cheeks pink and yet Aiyana thought to herself that the girl was beautiful in all her glory.