Need You To Need Me | Jenlisa

IV.

As soon as Jisoo stepped outside of the house she found Lisa, sat down in one of the steps that led to the front door.

She sat down next to her, neither of them muttering a word.

They always had an easy-going yet deep relationship, the two of them. Even though they might not talk too much about their feelings and what bothered them, they always seemed to get each other.
Right then, for example, words weren't needed.
They knew they would both have to talk about it sooner or later, but it just wasn't the moment. They weren't ready to admit it themselves, let alone another person.

So they sat in silence, watching how their breaths would condense in the cold air of that night.

When both of them had had enough, they decided to say good night and retreat to the corresponding rooms, where the reasons for their sadness would hopefully already be asleep.

Lisa had tried her best to avoid making any noises that could wake Jennie up. She had changed into her pajamas in the dark and swept under the covers.

She hoped with all herself that Jennie was sleeping. She wouldn't be able to endure a late night talk, or better fight, after what had happened before.

Even after assuring herself and her mind that Jennie was indeed asleep, she, of course, wasn't able to go into dream land herself.

So she laid still and stared at the ceiling until tiredness finally knocked her out.

She didn't know what time it was when she woke up. She was freezing. Someone had stolen all her blanket and she was left uncovered. And by someone, she meant the petite brunette who was sleeping unbothered, curled up in a blanket. Lisa's blanket.

Lisa tried to take it back, but her try had revealed unsuccessful. She even thought about waking her up. Then she decided against it.
She reached such a level of desperation that she even thought about cuddling up to her to have at least a little bit of the warmth she had been so hastily deprived of.
But once again, she preferred not to.
What if she woke up the next morning still cuddled up to Jennie? Or worst, what if Jennie woke up with Lisa cuddled up to her?
She would probably either tease her to death or freak the hell out.

When they were both younger they used to cuddle every time they'd sleep over at each other's houses. But not anymore. Not very often at least. It had become something so rare of Jennie to do that Lisa felt like it only happened when things between the two of them had been very good. And lately it hadn't been the case.

Still, she missed cuddling up to Jennie. She missed how Jennie would sneak her hands under Lisa's shirts and gently caress her back. Or how she would lay with her face so close to Lisa's she could feel her every breath on her face.

But the fact was, Lisa's was very careful about her displays of affection. Especially with people she cared for deeply.
She was always reluctant to ask Jennie for cuddles and hugs. It wasn't like she was scared she'd say no. It was because she was afraid she would do it only not to make her feel bad. Because she had to, not because she wanted to.
This is why it had always been Jennie who initiated every single cuddling session, hug, kiss.

She ended up not getting anymore sleep that night. It had been some of the worst few hours of her life. All she could think about was jennie. And it for sure didn't help the fact that the brunette was sleeping right beside her, letting out cute little snores every time she turned around.

When she finally heard noises coming from the kitchen, she rapidly got up.

" you look like shit" Rosie said.

She had indeed looked like shit. But she didn't need Rosè, who looked like she could put on a pair of jeans and go on with her day, to tell her that.
Her hair was disheveled, she was sure her eye bags were more than visible and she probably was wearing her pajamas inside out since she had gotten dressed in the dark.